Confusion (Tom Kaulitz)

What was I made for?

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    I woke up and I felt something cold pressed against my wrists and ankles..what was that?

My vision was very blurry and all I saw was darkness around me, only a dim light was above me, showing my fragile body all chained up. My hands were above my head, chained to the wall, both of my legs connected to big iron balls. For a moment I was very confused and scared, but then I remembered what happened. That dickhead Diamond took me away from Tom.

Panic rushed through me, where was Tom? And where was I? I didn't even wanted to think about what will happen to me if Tom isn't showing up anytime soon.

Suddenly I heard heavy footsteps,they were very similar to Tom's, for a moment my face lit up and my eyes started watering, I thought maybe he is here to save me!

Very wrong of me..soon the man approached and stood in front of me,I didn't recognized him, it sure wasn't Diamond.

"I see the princess is finally awake." the man said in an annoyed tone and looked at me up and down, smirking. Pff,what a prick.

"What the fuck do you want from me?" I asked angryly, oh boy if only Tom was here..

"First of all, watch your mouth before I smash your pretty face into pieces, secondly, you are here because Tom fucking killed Diamond and he owes us, plus we know how important are you to your little boyfriend." the man spat at me and turned away.

"Shut up you motherfucker! You think Tom did this just for fun? He killed him because that man wanted to take me away! Tom will come and kill you all!!" I shouted at him. Of course, I wasn't really sure why Tom killed the man, but I thought maybe I can play with this prick's mind a bit. If I wanted to stay alive I had to play it dirty, as the mafia does.

And there was a chance Tom will not come after me, I mean, why would he? Okay, he said he loves me but this would be a big risk, coming on a rival's territory just for a girl?

The man turned angrily at me, without any other words spoken he punched me hard in the face and stomach. I whined in pain, this was something I wasn't used to. At first Tom threw me from a place to another, sometimes slapping me or punching me but this was something totally new, something stronger than Tom would do.

"One more word and I slit your neck, you bitch!" the man shouted in my face. I spat right between his eyes, I saw how my saliva was slowly dripping down to his nose.

"You-" I cut him off.

"Tom will come! Watch it!" I shouted at him and felt blood pouring down my nose. When it dropped in the corner of my mouth, I licked the metallic flavoured hot blood. I looked up at him, he was staring at me like he saw a ghost. I gave him a smirk.

"You crazy bitch!" He once again turned on his heel and I heard his footsteps slowly disappearing in the darkness.

I was left alone, God knows what was in this room, maybe dead bodies, as once Tom showed me his little "art room". I was still traumatized.

I know crying for help was useless, I most likeable was in a basement without any windows and anyone who could hear my desperate shouts. This was so fucked up.

Salty tears rolled down my hot cheeks, that man totally left a mark on my face, but who cares when you are trapped in a situation like this.

I didn't even know who to blame..myself? Tom? Or the Cartel shit..or God. Why was my life always a big piece of shit? What did I do to deserve this? Maybe forgiving Tom wasn't the best idea..or coming back to Tokyo. Why did I even came back? I didn't liked it here anyways.