baby

big girl panties

october 18th
capitol hill, dc

manny had moved out of baby's house and now had an apartment of his own. baby missed the time spent with her fiancé but she had been over there almost every day.

"do you want me to come and we can have the conversation together?"

"manny i feel like you're a hothead and it's gonna get ugly, and i want everyone to still like you after this"

"i can understand dat, at least you kno ion play bout you or my baby" he said over the phone

baby heard the door open and her mother calling her name. "it sounds like amani's here, i have to go" baby said blowing kisses into the phone towards her boyfriend

"make sure you feed my baby, i'a see you lata" he said before blowing a kiss and hanging up the phone

she looked into her vanity mirror, i'm pregnant and i'm keeping it. she practiced with her reflection.

"baby, your brothers here" her mother yelled at the bottom of the stairs. baby could feel her body vibrating, shaking violently as she found her way down to her kitchen. she observed her mother and amani resting over the island and approached. she smiled at them, not wanting them to think anything was wrong before she hit them with the news.

"you wanted to talk to us?" her mother asked. baby knew she had to come clean rather than have her mother find out. the repercussions would be worse if she held it from them.

"yeah i did, i'm pregnant" she ripped the bandaid off nice and quick. she watched the emotions of shock and disappointment develop onto the faces of her mom and brother

"baby stop fuckin playin, whatchu call me ova hea to talk about for real?"

she pulled out the ultrasounds that's had her name on the top right corner. "i really am pregnant" she said, "i'm 5 weeks" she said as her voice cracked, signaling she was about to start crying.

"you're not keeping it right?" her mother said as she had a stern look on her face

"i am"

"yo you're really dumb as fuck" amani said as he laughed his anger away, "you wanna be like these young ass thots? popping babies out, letting niggas fuck on you? you wanna be like them?"

"how am i anything like them? i've been with manny since july-" she started

"do you hear yourself willow?! JULY! not 2 years, not 5 and you guys aren't married! i thought i raised you better than this" her mother said

"but we're engaged" baby replied as she held up her ring finger showcasing the pricey diamond that lived on her finger. she saw amani's face turned red and she knew that he would have a bone to pick with manny as soon as he got his hands on him.

"baby you're thinking about nobody but yourself! you're not grown, you're not even 18, you can't even get married without my permission and i won't be giving it to you"

"that's fine, i'll just wait i'll be 18 in two months"

"what about space? you didn't think about how we're gonna live with a baby in this house willow?!"

"i'll move out-" she tried to insist

"no you're not, you need to be watched obviously. i fully support you experimenting but getting pregnant? and ENGAGED? all at 17? you're not grown"

"ya really not and i don't know why you letting dis nigga manny gas ya head to that point" amani added just staring baby down

"it's not mannys fault-" she got cut off again

"YOU MADE DA BABY ON YA OWN? OR WHAT?!" he screamed

"mani mani shhhh"

"i fucking hate you guys" baby said as she cried

"you hate us cause we don't want you to throw us life away?"

"a baby is a blessing and you guys should know that, it was gonna happen eventually i didn't plan this but i'm not getting rid of my baby when i'm in a stable relationship and we both want the baby" she cried, "you guys won't even let me talk" she cried some more, "and ma it's ironic that you care about me so much now but when amani's dad would come into my bedroom at night you were always asleep for that huh?" baby dropped the secret that haunted the family

"what?" amani said as he turned his neck to his mother

"willow, i'm not doing this with you, you are not having that baby, you are not getting married and you are NOT to see that boy anymore, that's it" her mothers voice cracked as she walked away, baby could see her shoulder tense and heard the sniffling signaling her mother was crying. it just left amani and baby in the kitchen as they stared at each other.

"you kno dis too much fa me right now, i need some time" he said before finding his way out of the house. once baby found quiet among all the chaos she went back to her room and found her phone. the call rang a couple of times before the voice she wanted to hear picked up.

"how'd it go mama?" he asked, excited and nervous to hear how their circumstances effected the way that her family viewed him; his friendship with amani most importantly.

"they don't want me to see you anymore, they don't want me to have the baby and they said i'm too young to get married" she cried on the phone, "i don't know what i'm gonna do manny i really want my baby, and i don't think i could go without seeing you" she sobbed harder

"shhh shhh" he quieted her cries, "todo va a estar bien, estoy en tu esquina mi amor" he comforted his pregnant fiancé. "it'll work itself out baby, we been through worse and you kno dat"

"yeah but manny it's too much, it's like everywhere i go i can't catch a break and i hate it so much. i get made fun of at school for being pregnant, my mom doesn't want me to even be with you and amani..." she said, "i accidentally mentioned the abuse in front of him, he never knew. and i suck because i just ruined every good image he ever had of his father"

"baby dat nigga sick, amani a real nigga he not gon hold dat against you, you his baby sista" manny said speaking from experience

"what am i gonna do manny" she cried some more into the phone

"you wanna come stay with me ta night? my house is ready, i even bought a crib for da baby" he said to baby

"okay, can you come get me? my mom took my car keys"

"i'a be there in 30 my love"

"i love you so much" she said

"i love you even more" he replied

a/n

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