As of late, I have found myself having pretty bad nightmares. They plaque me after twenty years. Images of my molestation flash behind my eyes as I try to run from the trauma he caused me. My worst fear is him getting out of prison and coming after my siblings and me. He says he isn't mad we put him away.
The thought of him getting out makes me dread what he might try to do. All these years I have fought the anger and guilt that has consumed me. I feel like I failed my siblings and I know they don't blame me but I blame myself. All those years ago I felt like I didn't have a voice and I felt like I deserved the things that happened to me.
Now that I am older and a mother in a loving healthy relationship, I know what happened to me wasn't my fault and I didn't deserve it.
No one will ever make me feel like I am deserving of abuse and emotional damage. There are brighter days in my future and I am finally healing from the damage I endured. For so long I have been afraid to be myself and now I am embracing the past and setting myself free.
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Suicide Help
RandomThis book is a follow up to my other Suicide prevention book. I hope this book helps some of you struggling through things. You are never alone in this battle.
