I just wanted to let all of you know that I am doing better. These past few days have been hard but I am working through it. My family has reached out to check on me knowing something was wrong. They know that I am a suffer in silence person so they took it upon themselves to contact me. For years I have hidden in the shadows and struggled in silence. Taking pills to end my life and cutting weighed my heart down. With everyone surrounding me I still felt so alone. As the years went on I stopped eating while taking weight loss pills. The bullies I faced made me feel like a nobody. All through my school days, I would take pills to keep the weight off and I rarely ate. When I got home I would lock myself in my room.
After I graduated I started eating better and tried to stop the pill taking. For a while I did good but then the thoughts crept in and caused the pain and fear to rise. Slowly I reverted back to my old ways. Nobody saw the way I changed which made me feel worthless. Tears fell at night and I faked a smile during the day. Even in my relationship my ex never noticed the scars or the blood. I stopped taking pills and started trying to kill myself with alcohol. Then the abuse started and I wanted to end everything that much more. One night I almost succeeded until a family member forced me to throw it all up. The look on their face made me feel like a complete failure.
Silently I cried at night and fought my demons when I tried to sleep. Ever since I started writing on here I have found that my struggles weren't in vain. There are so many of you that have experienced the same things. I don't hide anymore in fear of being judged. Writing about the things in my life have helped me handle hard situations. All the friends I have made on here due to this have been so supportive and so open. The storm has started to recede and I can see the sunshine. Hopefully, I can help those who are struggling to feel like they are somebody. All of us deserve love and acceptance.
Keep fighting you beautiful Storm flowers.....
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Suicide Help
AcakThis book is a follow up to my other Suicide prevention book. I hope this book helps some of you struggling through things. You are never alone in this battle.
