My Heart Will Go On

Chapter 13

For me, it's hard to digest when everything goes smoothly, without any hindrance. But that was not the case with Rey, I was happy with him. I wanted to be with him. 5 months had passed, and in these months, I started to realize my feelings for him. I knew I loved him. He taught me how to live, how to be truly happy by not caring about others, how to be yourself. He was the one for me and I knew it. I thought that we'd be together, forever, but things don't always go as planned.

That was the day when I finally decided to confess my feelings to him, after 5
months, I know I was late, but it's said, better late than never, or so I thought. I
was nervous, yet excited. I prepared myself to finally express my feelings about him. He had called me, saying that he wanted to have a word with me. I thought to take this as an opportunity.

I happily walked down the stairs and hugged my mom before leaving. She looked confused. "What's the matter, darling?" she asked smilingly. "Nothing mom, just feeling elated." Saying so, I went out, took a cab and told the cab driver the address. I was smiling the whole time. I looked at the bracelet on my left wrist and smiled widely. 'I love you so much, Rey.' I thought and looked outside the window.

Minutes later, I arrived. He had called me in a park. The weather looked captivating; it seemed like it'd rain anytime soon. I called him and he said that he'd be there in a few. I took a seat on a bench; I was freaking out. I saw him entering the park, my heartbeat skyrocketed. I was so excited to speak my heart out. Ash told me to tell her everything after the confession. Her ship, Rosey, would finally sail. Or so I thought.

I stood up and hugged him. "Hey." I spoke cheerfully. "Hi." It was a blunt hi, but I ignored it. "I've something to say, Rosabella." "Same, but you go first." I spoke with a smile. "Actually..." "Hmm, actually?" He took a deep breath and continued. "Rosabella, I'm sorry." "Sorry? For what?" He seemed hesitant. "Speak up, Rey." I was getting impatient.

After a short pause, he finally spoke up, "Rosabella, I'm sorry, it's not working for me." "Rey, just stop beating around the bush." Was he testing my patience? All the negative thoughts crossed my mind. My heartbeat increased threefold; I had an uneasy feeling for this. "I need time for myself. I couldn't get over my past. It keeps haunting me. I'm sorry, Rosabella, but I think, we can't stay together..." and he stopped. "Is this a prank? If yes-" "No Rosabella, it's not a prank." he stated.

That was it. Everything felt like it stopped around me. His words echoed in my head, 'We can't stay together'. "So, you don't love me?" I asked hesitantly. "I am not sure about it, I'm sorry..." I couldn't think of anything, for a moment I forgot that I was there to confess my feelings. In a matter of seconds, everything got ruined, he ruined everything.

The man, who made me happy, who made me feel special, who was now an important part of my life, who loved me, who made me feel loved, who understood me, who I thought that yes, he's the one, who I loved, that man stood in front of me saying that he can't be with me anymore.

I completely broke from inside, I wanted to cry my heart out. "What do you want- Rosabella!" I left without uttering any other word. He came running behind me, "Rosabella, I'm sorry, I extremely am sorry." I kept walking, ignoring his voice. The voice which once soothed me, which I loved, was now stinging my heart.

I kept walking, ignoring everything. I didn't want to stay in that place anymore, I didn't want to see his face anymore. I came here to tell him that I loved him, but now I hate him. Interesting, isn't it?

I came out and a cab stopped. Suddenly, he grabbed my hand, but I freed it. I
looked at him with rageful eyes. I sat inside the cab and told the address. The
tears were threatening to come out, but I didn't let them. His words kept echoing in my head, that's all I could think of.

I reached home and got out of the cab. The sky was filled with thunder clouds. I went inside and abruptly closed the main door. Thankfully, my mom was nowhere to be seen. That was good, because I didn't want to talk to anyone, I didn't want to answer anyone. I just wanted to be alone. I abruptly opened and closed my room's door. And that was it, I broke down. I slid down the door and hugged my knees. I cried my heart out. I wanted to scream, destroy everything.

I looked outside the window, and it was raining. It was, as if, nature was crying for me, or was it mocking me? I grabbed my hair and screamed; I screamed my heart out. Why? Why did he do this to me? What wrong did I do? Was everything fake? Did he fake everything? My head was filled with innumerable questions.

"I love you, Rose." "I promise, I won't leave you, ever." "We'll be together, forever." "Rose, I promise that I'll never break your heart." "I promise to be by your side always." All his promises, sweet words and his smiling face occupied my head.

"Promise, promise, promise!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and threw the flower vase kept near the door. Were all those promises fake? Was everything he did fake? I dropped myself on my knees and lowered my head. "Why Rey...why...?" I continued crying. I didn't know what time it was or for how long I cried, but I surely knew that I could have cried all night long. Nature was crying, and so was I.

I heard a knock at my door. "Rose?" It was mom. "Rose, are you okay? I heard
your scream." I cried silently. "Rose?" I composed myself and spoke, "Yes mom, I just saw a rat, that's why." She tutted from the other side, "You scared me." and she left. I cried silently. I didn't want to tell her anything, at least not now.

I didn't know how many hours or minutes I cried for, but I surely cried for a long a time. I was sitting down, leaning against my bed and looking outside the window. "Rose, it's time for dinner!" my mom called me from downstairs. I stood up and went to the bathroom.

I entered the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror. I was a complete mess. My eyes were red and swollen from crying, my face puffy. My hair was messy and tangled. I washed my face and wiped it with the towel. I tried not to think about it much, but I couldn't. My eyes again teared up, but I didn't let them fall. I pushed them back and went out. I brushed my hair. I felt weak, it felt like all my energy had drained. I went down and ate my dinner silently. I didn't utter a word.

"Rose is everything okay?" my dad asked. "Yes dad." "Why aren't you saying anything and why do you look gloomy?" "No dad, I'm fine and I just don't want to speak anything right now, that's why." My parents gave each other a confusing look. I finished my dinner and was about to stand, when my mom spoke, "Rose-" "Mom, I'm not in the mood to talk right now, sorry." I stood up and went to my room. I laid on the bed and hugged myself with the blanket.

No matter how much I tried not to think about him, those thoughts kept crossing my mind. I closed my eyes and a tear escaped. I hated him and I hated myself more for being such a mess. I wanted to sleep, I wanted to rest, I was tired. I cried until I fell asleep.

A heartbreak for Rosabella, poor her :(
What do you think, did Rey do the right thing?