My Heart Will Go On

Chapter 16

Rey's POV:

After Aron left, I went to my bedroom. I laid on my bed and released a sigh. 'Will she call me?' I thought to myself. I took my phone from the nightstand and looked at it. 'I don't think she will.' Thinking so, I kept the phone back on the nightstand, closed my eyes and didn't know when I drifted to sleep.

I woke up with the sound of my phone ringing. I groaned and picked it up, without seeing the caller ID. "Hello, Rey." I heard Rosabella's voice. I opened my eyes and looked at the caller's ID. It was Rosabella. I quickly sat straight on the bed, "Rosabella. How are you?" "Fine." she spoke monotonously.

There was silence for a few seconds. "Will you speak up, Rey? I haven't called to stay in silence." "Yeah, sorry." I took a deep breath and started. "Rosabella, I'm sorry. I know I've messed everything up. But I expressed my thoughts to you, because I know that you would understand them. Rosabella, the times spent with you are cherishing and memorable. I never faked anything. It's just that I need time for myself. You know about my past, how things have been with me, my family problems, my friends, my academics, everything was filled with toxicity, and then I met you. You understood me more than myself. Rosabella, maybe I don't love you, but I do admire you, and I don't want to lose you. I never intended on hurting you, I swear. And if I had not told you anything, then I would have hurt you more. I am guilty for what I've done and even if you don't want to forgive me, then that's alright. It's totally your choice." I spoke in a soft voice.

"Rosabella, I'm not saying all these just to prove myself right, I just don't want any misunderstandings between us." "Rey, there's nothing left between us. So, you don't have to worry about the misunderstandings, even if there are some." she spoke in a raised voice.

"Rose, please listen to me. Please. Like I said I don't want to lose you. You've become an important part of my life." Just then I heard her whimpering. 'She's crying.' My heart clenched. "Rose-" "I'm fine, Rey-"

Rosabella's POV:

I called him and he received the call, through his voice it seemed that I disturbed his precious sleep. I asked him to explain everything. I felt a pang in my heart when he said that maybe he doesn't love me. I listened to everything he said. My eyes were getting watered. He explained everything. "I don't want to lose you." 'But you've already lost everything, Rey'. I thought to myself.

A soft whimper escaped my lips and I guess he heard it. "Rose-" he started to speak but I interrupted. "I'm fine, Rey, and I heard and understood everything. You are correct, people need time for themselves too. They need space to understand and to heal themselves. But Rey, I don't think that we will be back to normal soon. We both need time for ourselves." I tried to understand everything but, in the end, it was me who had to suffer.

Rey was correct, he would have hurt me more if he didn't tell me anything now. He was late, but better late than never right? 'I will try to overcome everything, it would be hard, but I've to.' I thought to myself. We talked for about an hour, and I felt better than before. Ash was correct, my viewpoint about him changed after this conversation.

I thought way too negative about him. We ended the call, and I released a sigh. 'All the best, Rosabella.' I closed my eyes and leaned on the headboard.

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It's been a month of my suffering. Yeah, I've been suffering these days. It was difficult for me to handle this. After that conversation, everything seemed fine, until I started to overthink again. I was messing up my own mental health. Rey and I didn't talk, he probably must have thought that I was fine, but I wasn't.

I received a call from Aron, "Hey, Rose. What's up?" "I'm fine. How about you?"
"I'm doing great. Hahaha. Rose, I'm throwing a party at my house tonight and I called you to give an invitation." "Oh, that's great." "Will you come?" he
asked. "Of course, why-" 'Wait, Rey would be there too.'