Teach Me Love

Her Apartment

Lena's POV

I didn't plan on introducing Stef to Rosy who is basically like my mother at this point, but I can't say that I'm not happy that it's done and that it went well.

I was glad that Rosy saw that Stef was a good person and I think she likes her. She's usually welcoming with everyone, but with Stef it was a little more and that was nice to see.

What this morning made me realize though, is that Stef and I don't know anything about each other's lives, how we grow up, our previous relationships or anything like that. Also, we haven't been talking about the future yet. So far, we have been only in the present, which was nice, but I guess now I can't help but want more.

I want to know her better, and I want her to know me better as well, I want to share with her, and I just hope she wants the same.

After breakfast this morning, we all chat a bit, and then we walked Rosy back to her house that was actually the former guest house next to mine.

When my father died, Rosy had to stay with me in the house since I was a minor and that my father picked her as my legal guardian. But then, when I turned eighteen, I became an adult and she decided to move out of the house because she said she didn't want me to have to throw her out one day, she wanted to be the one deciding. That is one thing that I would have never done, but I guess me being the teenager that I was, she didn't know that. And so I begged her to stay, but she refused. Then, I ended up offering her the house beside mine and again she refused because she couldn't pay the rent, and she didn't want it as a gift, she really didn't want to take advantage of my heritage. However, I was more persistent than that, I manage to get her to stay and just pay me what she could and of course I had to be persuasive once again, but she gave in eventually.

It wasn't that she didn't want to stay with me, I guess it was the fear that I see her just as a nanny, as an employee and I was so bad at showing what was really in my heart back then, that I guess she thought that I would have ask her to go like she was just anyone, and so she wanted to be the one deciding not to get hurt by me, that I know she sees as her own flesh.

Anyway, after we said bye to Rosy, we went our way to get ready for class for my part, and just to get Stef back to her apartment.

That apartment I swear, the more I see it, and the more I hate it. It was so bad, and so unsafe that just thinking about my girlfriend here, alone at night is giving me shivers. However, I went against saying anything just yet, I don't want to come off controlling or worst, maternal.

But tonight, I want her back in my bed for I loved sleeping next to her last night. Her body was so soft and just feeling her breathing right against my chest relaxed my whole body and made me feel a kind of peace that I never have felt before.

So I waited the end of the day. I taught those young minds all day long, and as much as I love it, that day was long and the only thing in my mind was Stefanie. Now I know that I'm screwed for I'm so in love with her already and I know nothing about her, but I don't care, she's just someone I want to be around to and so I needed to go at her place, making it as a surprise and then take her home with me.

I park in this neighborhood that still doesn't feel safe, especially now that it was a bit dark outside, and I make my way in Stefanie's apartment. This time the door is well closed, at least as much as it can, and so I knock.

"Yeah, who is this?" I hear from the other side as I smile intently at my girlfriend voice.

"It's me." I say, knowing that she probably can't just open the door in case it's some drug dealer trying to harm her or whatever. That along is making me crazy already.