Teach Me Love

A Nice Big Car

Stef's POV

Lena is so weird these days. It's like she's avoiding me or something since we came back from New York, and I don't understand why.

I try to see her the next day on campus, and she wasn't there. She didn't even tell me that she was absent that day. When I called her, she's been very vague and now, each time I try to go see her in her office, she always has something important to do, or somewhere else to be.

I'm starting to go crazy with this. She never done this before, and I'm wondering if she's not questioning everything and considering leaving me or something like that.

My only option at this point is to take a cab and go see her at her house without announcing myself first because I'm afraid that she'll find a way to avoid me again.

If she wants to leave me, then I would at least appreciate honesty, and a talk face to face.

In another hand, I don't know what I would do if she ever leaves me because she became such a big part of my life. It feels horrible not to see her or talk to her for a few days, so I can't imagine living like that, without her forever. It's crazy how I sound like a teenager right now, but fuck she really is my heart now, and I know I can live without her, because I've been doing just that so far, but I absolutely don't want to.

I pay the driver and give him a tip, since I can now, and then I got out of the car to go ring the doorbell and almost instantly, Marcus opened.

"Hello Miss Stefanie. How may I help you?" he asks very politely as usual. And usually, I would crack a joke and try to make him laugh right away, but today I wasn't in the mood for I was nervous. Extremely nervous about how this is going to go.

"Hi Marcus. Is Lena here, please?" I ask softly as he paused for a second, looking into my eyes.

"Miss Lena asked not to be disturbed... however.... if I turn my back like this, it is possible that I didn't see you come in to find her in her office." He says, turning her back a little as I can tell he got the order not to let me in which honestly hurt, but I can also tell that he's trying to help and for that I'm glad.

"Thanks Marcus. I own you one." I say, smiling at him softly even though he can't see me, and then I come in and almost run to Lena's office.

When I reach the door, I stop and take a deep breath, telling myself not to fall apart right away if she decides to break up with me.

I don't bother to knock, and I just open the door, come in and slam it, leaning my back on it as Lena lifts her eyes from whatever she's doing when she heard the door closing.

Our eyes met, and I didn't really know what to say.

"How did you get in?" is the first thing that she asks...

"Seriously? That's the only thing you have to say to me after avoiding me for days, for a reason that I absolutely don't know?" I ask, feeling my heart getting heavy into my chest.

"What do you want?" she asks, her face not showing a single expression, as if it's the first time I see her all over again.

"I want to understand. Lena... I don't understand what I did wrong, what did I do to make you ignored me like that?" I ask, getting closer the sit across from her.

"I don't want to talk about it." she says, her eyes going back to her work as I was growing a bit angry if I'm honest.

"Oh yes, we're going to talk about it. You can't leave me like that without any explanation." I say as she looks into my eyes again, but still not saying anything which was driving me nuts, but I'm trying very hard not to lose my temper because it feels like this situation is my fault. Maybe I messed up somewhere.