Teach Me Love

I Believe You

Stef's POV

What the fuck is happening? What the hell just happened?

I was happy, I was eager to move in with Lena, I was going to start a life with her, and the next thing I know, she's with a baby... my baby in her arms, looking at me with such shock on her face.

And how did this happen? How did she get here, and why? Why, when they literally take her away from me, the second she was born...

When I saw her in Lena's arms, my heart completely stopped. I couldn't breathe for the life of me, and all my world fell apart... I recognized her instantly, her nose, her mouth, her eyes... I recognized them instantly, a baby that I saw just once...

I buried this so deep down inside of me that I almost forget it. When I saw her, everything that happened to me came right back into my face and I felt like... like I wanted to die.

"Stef, Stef, I'm here baby, I'm here." I hear Lena rushes to sit on the floor next to me as I'm staring into space, my brain feeling like mush, and I can't think, I can't feel anything but pain, and I absolutely don't know what to do with myself as I feel Lena's arms sliding around my body.

"Are you okay? Please say something, anything, please." Lena says, worries in her voice. But I don't know what to say. I'm not okay, and I don't know how to deal with everything that is happening inside of me.

Lena then put her soft and warm hands on my face, to make me look at her, and those eyes were filled with love and compassion...

"Tell me what you need right this moment, baby, tell me, please..." she says, looking right into my eyes as I broke down once again, this time throwing myself into her arms as she holds me tight against her chest.

"I'm here for you, my love... it's okay, baby." she whispers while smoothing my hair gently as I can't stop sobbing uncontrollably, clenching on to her for dear life.

"Don't leave me Lena... Please don't leave me..." I beg, crying, hoping with everything in me that she wasn't going to leave me alone in this, because I don't know what I would do without her by my side.

"I'm not, I won't leave you, I'm here, and I'll be here, I promise... whatever this is, I'll stand by you, my love. I love you no matter what and you're not alone, you hear me?" she says without any hesitation as I'm choosing to believe her because I can't have doubts on top of everything, because I know that eventually I will have to tell most of the thing that happened to me, and I hate that I don't have more time to process and instead I'm forced to do it... once again.

"Where... where is she?" I can't help but ask... I don't want to know, I'm not proud of it, but a part of me absolutely don't want to know... but there's this part, this part that can't help but need to know where she is and if she's safe.

"She is with Rosy. Marcus is currently driving them home... I told Rosy to keep her to her house for now..." Lena says as I know that she wants to ask questions; of course she does...

*knock knock*

"Is there anyone here?" we heard a man say from outside as Lena got up to go see who it was.

"Yes?" she says.

"Oh hello, I'm the owner, I came to take back the keys of the apartment... we said 4pm, right?" he says, as I get up, trying to dry my tears the best I can and put myself together.

"Yes... hum yes, sorry, I just... I mean here's the keys." I said, my mind still confused and in the fog, as I awkwardly pick up the things and the box that fell from my hands earlier and trying to get the key out of my back pocket at the same time.