~jegulus oneshots~

the break up

TW - yelling, self harm, fighting

"Talk then James" I say crossing my arms "just let me find my words" James says sitting down. "They been auguring for 5 hoursss" Sirius complains form his bedroom "I know... I'm so hungry" Remus says laying down on Sirius bed. "Now your lost for words. You was ok with screeching at me, a couple minutes ago" Regulus says James gets up and put face close to Regulus "shut the fuck up Reggie!!" James huffed putting his fingers to his tempol, I sit down on the sofa "you was never meant to find out" he says "I was never meant to find out... I WAS- James! Wow! Wow ok yeah I feel loads better ok thank you now everything can go back to normal" "Reggie" "no no if I was never meant to find out then it's ok that you slept WITH ANOTHER PERSON" James stands up straight "I WAS DRUNK" he yells "I DON'T CARE IF YOU WAS DRUNK YOU HOOKED UP WITH A ANOTHER PERSON AND THEN PROCEED TO HIDE IT FORM ME" I yell angry tears fall form my face "I . WAS. DRUNK" I get off the sofa pacing.

"Reggie.. please look at me" James begs sitting in front of me I slowly look up at him "I love you, please don't let my mistakes mess up what we have here" James say "It's like I don't even know you anymore, I always thought I could trust you that I could- I thought you're the one person I could come to if I was upset, I just.. I don't know anymore" I say taking my hands away form his "Reg it was a one-night thing me and lily-" "lily" I interpret "shit" James whispers under his breath "it was with lily" I say looking at him in the eyes. James nods "that bitch" I get up "where are you going" James ask "sort something out" I opens the door and slams it shut leaving James standing in the middle of the common room.

I run though Hogwarts, looking for lily when I finally found her "lily!" she looks at me "oh hay Reggie-" "-fuck you whore" I punch her in the face blood stains my clothes "AHH!" she screams holding her nose, "Regulus what the fuck!" Marlene screams "YOU HOOKED UP WITH JAMES AND I DIDN'T TELL ME" I scream "HE BEGGED ME NOT TO TELL YOU! I DIDN'T EVEN REMEMBER UNTILL HE SAID SOMETHING" she screams back I push her on the floor getting on top of her punching her she screams punching me in the eye "GET OFF ME PHYCO" she screams Mary and Dorcas drag me off "IM GONNA KILL YOU EVANS, BETTER START RUNNING" she cries holding onto her face.

Remus, Sirius, James and peter come running over "what the hell happened!" reums yells grabbing hold of my arm "GET OFF" I scream, Mary helps lily up looking at her nose "we need to head to the nurse I think its broken" Mary says giving lily a tissue for the blood "can someone please! Tell us what happening" Sirius yells looking at Regulus "James and lily hooked up while drunk and didn't tell Regulus, Regulus found out and now Regulus is pissed and want to kill her" Marlene explains "REMUS LET ME GO" I yell pulling away "no you're attack lily!" I role my eyes, Dorcas grabs lily arm "I'll take her to the nurse, come on Lil" they walk away slowing away. Remus lets go of my arm I rub it looking at everyone but ending looking at James "I trusted you" James sighs "I know and I'm sorry" he grabs my hands again "Regulus I love you so much, you are the one I want to be with" he pulls me close and kisses me I kiss back but then my stomach drop I pull away whipping my lips, tears fall form my eyes "I can't I'm sorry James.. I can't- kissing you just feels- it like I can still feel her lips on your" tears fall form his face "please don't throw this away Reggie, what we have- what we went through please don't let it end this way, I love you so much" he kisses my cheek then my neck back to my lips I cry standing back "I'm sorry James, but I can't- be with you anymore, knowing that you did- knowing that she kissed you where I kissed you I-" cries fall form my mouth "you can't expect me, to just forgot it" "Regulus..-" he can't think of anything to say "I'm sorry James, I'm done"

I turn around and walk away putting my hand over my mouth I walk to the Slytherin common room biting my lip "Reggie!" Pandora yells "you ok mate?" Evan says sitting up looking at him "m-me a-and James b-broke up" I say holding back tears "shit... sorry man" Barty says, I can't control it anymore I don't care who looks at me I break down violent tears fall form my face, I collapses onto the floor shaking putting my hand my chest they all rush over, they look at each other not knowing what to do I yelp and cry when I feel arms around me I look up and see them all hugging me "its ok to be upset, let it all out" Barty says resting his head on mine I keep crying holding onto them 20 go by we all just stay there I keep crying, I pull away slowly "i-im gonna go to bed" they all nod "we be up in a minute" Evan says smiling at me we all get up looking at each other "you're gonna be ok" Pandora says smiling at me I nod slowly I don't feel like I am "thanks guys.. it means a lot" I walk out of the common room and walk up the stairs into my shared bedroom.

I sit on my bed holding my hands forcing my self not to do anything I know I will Regret pain takes over me I sit there crying I feel my arms begin to shake I get up slowly locking the door walking over to my bedside table opening it grabbing my ring box and taking the black foam out of it revealing 5 mini blades I grab one out pulling my jumper sleeve up doing quick lines against my pale skin over and over blood drops form my arm, my pain slowly drifts away but then get replaced with guilt, I don't move until I hear the doorknob turn "Reggie? Why is the door locked".

Shit.

I get up quickly putting everything away swearing under my breath. "Reggie! Regulus! Open the door" Barty yells banging on the door "wait! Im- just wait" I yell rapping my forearm up with a bandage "REGULUS OPEN THE DOOR" Evans screams. They continues to bang and yell I clean everything up throwing a jumper on the floor covering the blood running to the bathroom and wetting my hair I pull my sleeve down opening the door "I was having a shower" I lie. They all walk in "why did you lock the door" Pandora asked looking around "I don't know force of habit" I say pulling my sleeve over my hand "mhm" Barty looks me up and down.

he doesn't believe me shit.

I fake yawn "I'm gonna go to bed" I walk over to my neatly made bed; I get in hugging my pillow "you not gonna get changed..." Evans says looking at me "no... im- I don't want to take off his jumper off" Barty sighs "fine you can keep them until he wants them back" I nod to the agreement "you Sure you was taking a shower" Barty says getting in his bed with Evans

Barty the only one that knows about my...bad coping mechanisms, I started when I was a year 1 when Sirius didn't talk to me I had no friends and just all alone the pain was too much, self-harm took the pressure off it bit, things started to get better I was talking to Sirius, I was friends with Barty Evans and Pandora, then I got a crush on potter and everything went downhill again Barty found me burning myself in the bathroom, he was mad a 1st, he made me give him everything to him he wouldn't leave me alone, thank god he didn't tell anyone though, he calmed down a bit after that, I got better, started dating James, I was clean for 6 months probably the longest I've ever been clean for, but then the break up. 6 months down the brain.

"Yep. Shower" I turn around quickly tears fall from my eyes, I hate lying to my friends but it what I have to do, half an hour later I hear snores I sigh tears fall form my eyes. It will get better... it must.

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