~jegulus oneshots~

leaving me behind

It's 4:25 in the morning, rain hits my window lightly, I lay in my green bed reading my book under the covers when I hear my door creek open, I put my book down pertaining to be asleep, I hear box's being moved draws being opened I pull my duvet down to see Sirius rummage through my stuff "Siri?" I whisper "go back to sleep Rhea" he says continuing putting stuff in my Chester drawers "what are you doing" i say moving my book to my side table "giving back some stuff" he says putting his Gryffindor jumper on the side "why are you giving me your jumper- Sirius it's 4 in morning" Sirius sighs looking at me with a sad tears falling form his eyes "father says no crying" he laughs whipping his tears "I'm sorry Reggie but I can't stay here anymore" I look at him "what are you talking about- you're running away" he nods "well then I'm coming with you" I get up but he sits me back down "no! I mean no you can't" I look at him. "What do you mean, why can't I come with you" he sighs picking up his bag "because you just can't, ok" going to walking out of my room "so that's it you're leaving me here" tears are in his eyes "stop crying, it shows weakness" Sirius force out a laugh "this! This is why I'm not taking you! Your so busy trying to be daddy's little girl! You been brainwashed by him! They don't love you; they don't love us. You got to get it in your fucking head" I stand up "shut up" I say "what? Go on protet daddy" "Sirus shut up" "he is using you he fucking- he hurts you, people who love you don't hit you! They don't put you down!" "SHUT UP" I scream he sighs "bye rhea, have a good life" he leaves my room shutting it as his footsteps quiet.

A pain appears in my chest, I held on to it, I lay back in my bed blinking away tears, feeling like my world just closing on into me, feeling of happiness leaves my body like water leaving a tap, I watch the stars in the sky as night turns to day. Constantly checking the clock hours go by painfully slowly when suddenly my door fly's open "RHEA WHERES SIRIUS" I sit up slowly "he left" I say looking at my father in his eyes "what did you say girl" "he left! He ran away!" he grabs hold of my neck forcing It down on the bed "WHERE DID HE GO" I cough "I can't- can't- br-breath! S-stop!" "TELL ME WHERE YOUR BROTHER WENT" I cough tears trickly from my eyes, he lets go standing back, I hold onto my neck "I don't k-know where he w-went- he j-just told m-me he's r-running away" Orion grabs my books and starts throwing them at walls tears fall from my eyes silently, he grabs my arm tightly pulling me down the long corridor and into the kitchen "TELL ME WHERE YOUR BROHTER IS" he slams my arm down on the side and turns the stove one placing a knife on it.

Sirius always got this punishment, I always heard his screams form my room, this is my 1st time, I'm guessing that it's not gonna be the last. He would always come back to my room with as smile on his face I would try and clean up the mess my father or mother did, but he would refuse.

He picks up the burning knife "TELL ME!" he yells inches form my face "I don't know!" he places the hot knife on my pale skin digging it in blood trickles out of my arm I bend over in pain not moving my airs brutal screams falls from my mouth "TELL ME GIRL!" he yells taking the knife out "I DON'T KNOW I SWEAR!" he digs the knife back in more screams fall from my mouth "YOU HAVE ONE MORE CHANCE" "I DON'T KNOW HE DIDN'T TELL ME!" he places it on my skin pushing it down my skin bubbles "STOPPPPP AHHHHHH" I scream he puts the knife on the side throwing me against the fridge "GET OUT OF MY SIGHT" he screams spitting at me. I get up clucking on my arm running to Sirius room getting into his bed hugging his pillow I cry into it smelling it, it smells like him my breathing quickness I sit up quickly holding onto my chest sharp breaths my hands start shaking I try and steady my breathing like Sirius taught me but it doesn't work I lay back down trying to let it pass

"Rhea?" I hear my name I sit up slowly seeing Bella "b-Bella?" she rushes over to my side holding my hands "what's wrong- are you ok" I shake my head Bella pulls me into a hug I tug on her top breathing picking up again "its ok calm down I got you" she holds me tight I calm down slowly not letting go she looks at me "are you ok" I nod my head she lays next to me I pace my head on her lap she plays with my hair "is it because of Sirius?" I nod my head "do you know where he gone" I shake my head "I promise I don't I wish I knew but I don't" she nods "its ok, that's not your fault, can I see the marks on your arms" I sit up pulling my sleeve up showing her the cuts and burns "merlin, Orion didn't hold back" I shake my head she gets up grabbing a little box grabbing stuff out and start caring for my wounds I watch her do it "we're going to Hogwarts next year" I nod my head "I think that will do you good, getting away form this place for a bit" I nod "I'm gonna make so many friends" I say smiling at her "I bet you are, you're a very loveable person" I smile she finished up cleaning my arm and rapping it in enchanted banged "I'm gonna rest a bit, I'm really tired I hardly spelt" she nods "do you want me to stay" I nod my head laying down hugging her she plays with my hair until I fall asleep.

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I'm saying it now I love Bellatrix and pre transition regulus friendship (I'm not saying Bellas transphobic I just think they got less close over time)

Bellatrix head cannon – she got expelled the 1st year of Hogwarts because someone was bullying regulus, so Bella used the Cruciatus Curse to protect reg but because she already in a lot of trouble they had to expel her.

Make sure you drink/eat something!!!

Have a good night/day/morning/afternoon

Toby/Marlene/rowan