I'm like feeling weird today
Like I've seen so much people see the persons that clearly saved my life and I can't help but to be jealous.
It's silly, really, but in a weird way people that don't know that I exist saved my life like no one could. I know that it's something that they did to a lot of people, but I can't help being jealous.
I think "Why would you want to see them again ? I never did."
I'm really jealous.
I know that in another life, if I had money, I would want to see them a lot, but in this life I can't.
In a way I feel mad(?) at my parents 'Why can't we have the money to do things like others ?' but I'm mostly mad at me 'If you saved your money you could see them' even if it's not true.
Even if I had the money I had nobody to see them with, nobody to come with me and take care of me etc..
It's really silly I know :/
