Knowledge is Dangerous [HaiKaveh]

Chapter 1

[Kaveh's PoV]

"It is now or never" I whispered to myself as I close my fist and tighten the grip on the liquor bottle in my hand

I heard the clicking sounds of the opening of the door then followed by light footsteps

He's back.

I know that he's already aware of my feelings toward him. He's probably either acting blind or he's waiting for me to do the first move

I've been planning to confess but I couldn't find the perfect timing for it, he always seems to be busy. He's the Akademiya's Scribe, of course, it would make sense that he's always busy. We barely even see each other even when we're both living under the same roof

It's frustrating but I couldn't do anything about it.

He's the Akademiya's Scribe, of course, it would make sense that he's always busy

"What are you doing?" his voice echoed in my ears, my heart started beating so fast, I don't know why I suddenly felt nervous as soon as I hear him speak

I need to calm down.

"Hmm... Just drinking... Wanna have some?" I look up at him, showed him the bottle of liquor, and gestured him to sit beside me on the sofa

Our eyes met. I don't know what kind of expression he's showing, I can't read his face and that's what I hate about him the most

"No. I still have other things that I
needed to be done" he instantly looked away and started walking. When he was about to walk past me, I immediately stood up and grabbed the hem of his shirt to stop him

"Wait..." I don't why I stopped him but I just don't want him to leave as soon as he came back

"What?" his voice is stern and cold as if he's annoyed that I stopped him

I'm getting emotional, damn it.

"I, uhm..." I cleared my throat to avoid stuttering "have something to say..." I stood up in front of him, looking down at my hands playing with the hem of his shirt

"...Make it quick"

"Well, it's kinda obvious so you would at least have hinted about it already. The thing is, I, uhm... you know..." my voice is slowly fading out and I can't find the right words to say, my hands are getting sweaty and I can feel my cheeks and ears burning up

"What are you doing?" he spoke after a moment of my silence

"Huh?" I looked up at him, confused at what he meant. Soon after, I just felt his hands grab my hands off of his shirt and stopped them from playing with the hem "Oh! Sorry... I didn't realize I've been-"

"So, what it is that you wanted to say?" he cut me off with an indifferent tone

I looked at him in the eyes, directly staring into his gaze yet I sense no emotion. It's as if I'm seeing a blank mirror with no reflection

"Well..." I parted my mouth and was about to continue what I'm saying earlier but no words are coming out

I've known him ever since we were studying as scholars in Akademiya. We both stand out as great students. I graduated before him and was able to accomplish things related to my field of expertise including the Palace of Alcazarzaray I designed which I consider to be my magnum opus

As for him, He became the Scribe of Akademiya. Due to that, he's always outside doing what he called work while I'm usually alone and bored here in his own house. I spend most of the time drafting designs as references for future projects