The first thing on my mind was to call Doka but that made me cry some more, so I called Ryo, I just wanted to talk to someone, but he said to wait for him at the lake where we used to throw rocks.
When Ryo arrived, I had already calmed down, but I started crying again when I told him everything that happened. I'm a mess, I know I'll think later that I shouldn't have accepted him coming to see me like this, but for the moment I completely ignore it.
"Thanks...for listening ." I said trying to wipe my tears.
"Your friend...she told to others, that you lied ?"
"Yes...but I can't blame her, she should want to vent too." I talked a lot about my friends with Ryo, but I never mentioned any of the names and he never asked either.
"They are very important to you, aren't they?"
"They helped make me who I am now." I said, feeling the tears coming back. "Oh! I have to stop crying!"
"No." Ryo stated, I turned and we stared at each other.
I froze, he looked beautiful in the moonlight and I've probably been staring too long.
"I must look awful right now…" I smiled awkwardly trying to ease the tension, neither of us looked away from each other.
"That would be impossible..." It's almost a whisper, but it resonates so many times in my head and we're so close.
It makes me feel even worse when I stop to think, I don't deserve compliments from a handsome guy when I've been so mean to my friends. So I looked away.
An uncomfortable silence, long enough for me to think he must think I was rejecting him.
"I guess your parents wouldn't like me either, would they?"
I looked at him again and we both smiled, small, tired smiles.
"Probably not..." I said. "Perhaps if you dress like a businessman..."
After we stopped laughing, I looked out over the lake, thinking about everything that had happened.
"I think the worst part is knowing they don't trust me anymore...how do I get that back?"
Ryo run a hand through his hair. "I'm sorry I didn't know how to help you..." He turned to face me again and I looked into his eyes too, they had a gleam of their own. I looked at Moon when I thought he had given up on talking.
Then I felt it, his arm around my waist, bringing me closer to him.
"Okay?" Ryo asked and I nodded.
Slowly, I rested my head on his shoulder, I looked at the landscape, the moon, the lake and the boy beside me. Such a good feeling, even though I just wanted to cry, Ryo made me feel comfortable in that moment.
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