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Song to listen to while reading- my tears ricochet by Taylor Swift
Y/n's POV- "Oh my god! Are you fucking serious right now!" i yelled at JJ. He glared at me and gave me a nod. "I'm dead serious" he said back to me.
Right now we're standing in my living room fighting over something so incredibly stupid. JJ was pissed i wasn't answering my phone all day. And even though i told him i was at work all day, he didn't believe me.
"JJ that's stupid! I was at fucking work!" i yelled in his face. He rolled his eyes before responding, "It's not stupid Y/n! And i wish i could believe you when you say you were at work but i can't!" he took a few steps closer to me as he screamed.
"And why can't you believe me JJ?" i questioned. "Because we both know there's no way you would work a 12 hour shift" he said as if it was obvious.
"Why is it so hard to believe i would work a twelve hour shift?" i yelled. "Because you hate work and you only go in when you have to. But it's not just today. You've been at work more often than usual" he said. "What are you trying to say JJ" i said as i pinched the bridge of my nose.
"I'm saying you're probably going to work more often so you can hookup with Dylan" he accused. I felt tears form in my eyes. How could he accuse me of such a thing? The truth was i was at work more often to make more money so i could buy him his dream surf board.
"I-I'm not cheating on you JJ" i yelled. i blinked away my tears. i wasn't gonna let him have the satisfaction of seeing me cry.
"Yea right" he scoffed. now i was more pissed than sad. "I'm not fucking cheating on you! You wanna go through my phone, huh? How can i prove it to you!" i screamed and threw my phone across the room.
He brought his hand up and i flinched and took a step backwards. i closed my eyes waiting for him to hit me. but he never did.
"Y/n?" he asked quietly. I opened my eyes and saw his expression and body language soften. He had tears in his bright blue eyes.
"I-I'm sorry" i stuttered. He pulled me into a hug as we both silently cried. He placed a kiss on my head every so often as we stood there for at least 5 minutes.
"I swear on my life, i'd never hurt you" he said quietly. i could feel his tears on the top of my head. "I know you wouldn't. but Rafe used to hit me when he got mad so i flinched out of instinct" i cringed at the thought of my past.
"I love you so much ok? i would never ever lay a hand on you" he said as he rubbed his hand up and down my back. i nodded and he kissed my head again.
I pulled away and looked up at him, i could see the tear stains all over his face. I brought my hands up and wiped them away with my thumbs.
"I think you're more shaken up than i am" i said softly as he leaned into my touch. He cracked a smile and nodded his head. i went up onto my tip toes and pulled his head down gently so i could kiss his forehead.
He wrapped his arms around me and rested his head on my shoulder as i caressed the back of his head.
"I'm turning into my dad" i heard him say sadly. My heart broke and tears filled my eyes again as he said that.
"No J don't say that. You're not anything like him and you never will be" i comforted. He shook his head in response.
"Y/n i scared you ok? you thought i was gonna hit you!" he sobbed. "JJ it wasn't your fault. Rafe made me think like that" i soothed. I know JJ was just running his hand through his hair and that he had no intention of hitting me. But Rafe installed this fear in me that any time a man raises his hand in an argument, he's gonna get violent.
"But baby you got scared. i scared you" he said. "JJ we both know you had no intention of hitting me. You did nothing wrong" i said. he finally agreed with me and nodded.
"C'mon let's go to bed" i said pulling him towards my bedroom. He followed slowly behind me. I opened the door and made my way to my closet to pull out some clothes for us to change into.
JJ changed into his sweatpants and i changed into nike pros and one of his hoodies. I climbed into bed and he followed me in.
I got comfy and opened my arms so JJ could lay on top of me. He got comfortable as he hid his face in my neck and held onto me tightly.
"I'm gonna fucking kill Rafe" he said and i could tell he was serious. "Don't go to jail, he's not worth it" i said as my fingers played with his hair.
"No body, no crime" he said simply. i let out a small laugh and kissed the top of his head. "I love you so much baby" he said before placing a kiss on my neck.
"Yea well i love you more" i said before dozing off into a deep sleep.
