HeartBreak. || DNF

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TW: ED, SH, Agressive, Mature Language, Abuse

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"I just can't" I whisper under my breath.

I didn't wanna tell George anything, I couldn't.

Just imagine what he'd think of me.

I noticed his furrowed brows and concerned eyes but he didn't say anything.

He wasn't sure what I was saying, I probably sounded insane.

I softly sigh, "I'll eat later, George."

He nods taking his eyes off of me.

I wasn't going to though.

I knew this wasn't healthy and it made sense but why did it even matter.

Who was gonna care anyway? Who was gonna find out.

I've always struggled with eating.

Every time I would pick up a fork it'd be like a whole chore to just put something in my mouth.

I've always just stuck with chewing gum.

I would always faint from not eating, then I would be forced to eat.

Whenever I speak about this topic everyone thinks theres an easy fix.

Just eat.

I can't exactly pinpoint when it all went wrong.

It's not that I didn't like how I looked but more of being filled with regret after every single bite.

I don't know what it was exactly but I knew my stomach was hungry but my brain told me I wasn't.

So I just don't eat.

I haven't ate for almost a week. I mean, I was surviving.

Some parts of me wish I wasn't though.

I hear footsteps making there way towards us.

I take a moment to look around.

George was taking slow steady bites of his food seeming like he was enjoying every bite. I really wish I could do the same.

Sapnap was joking around with Quackity and his boyfriend. Sometimes I'm convinced Quackity likes Sapnap. I don't think so though, they were always fighting anyways.

Karl was watching the two fight like an annoyed mother. I don't really know Karl that well but apparently Sapnap did. They had been hooking up for about a month now and I didn't even realize.

I look behind me to see my pissed off dad glaring while wiping his shirt off with a towel.

The outside of me was glaring at him back whilst the inside of me was smiling. It was a funny sight I had to admit.

He clears his throat as everyone goes silent.

They acted like he was their school principal, it was stupid.

"Clay, I need to speak to you."

I look back at him, I could feel everyones eyes on me.

I clenched my jaw knowing he wanted to yell at me.

"It's fucking Dream." I tell him before pushing past him.

He sighs following me to another room.

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We were in my room.

He takes a moment to look around before his eyes land on me.

He quickly closes the door.