HeartBreak. || DNF

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TW - Yelling, SH Thoughts, Slight smut lol

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"I don't understand!?" My moms yells. "Why are you being like this?!" 

"You bitch. You are nothing but a fucking slut!!" My dad yells back. 

My mom looks at me, "Go to your room Clay." 

I look at my mom as she had a serious look. I walk past them trying to ignore the yelling. 

I shut the door of my room in frustration and toss my bag on the ground by my cats food bowl. I lay down on the bed and look up at the ceiling.

I just came back from school but I couldn't manage to get my homework done. 

I was a sophomore. 

My grades sucked. All F's and if I was lucky enough I'd get a C. 

How was I gonna even manage to get my grades up?

My parents don't get it. They never tried to even act like they cared about what I was going through or what I was feeling.

I felt numb.

They want my grades up yet they fight ever single night. I could barely get any sleep.

Not to mention school was getting harder each day.

Not the work but the people.

The work they gave was a piece of cake but the people there made things complicated.

Tears start falling down my eyes. I was never the one to cry. I bottle up all my emotions and hope for the best out of it.

Why was I crying?

I couldn't explain my emotions.

My room was dark and the only source of light was from my window. The sky was grey and the only thing that could be heard was my heavy breath every 3 seconds. The only thing I could feel were tears rolling down my cheeks.

This is when I realized, I felt alone.

Not the kind of alone where I didn't have anyone. I had Sapnap. But I still felt lost. Stuck in a box where nobody could get in. A box where I'm locked inside.

I wish they didn't fight.

I kinda wished they'd divorce already. 

"Get out of my house!!" I hear out my door. 

I wish I could just shut them out, tell them to shut the fuck up. 

Was I the problem? 

I didn't understand. My life was okay for the most part. Was I being ungrateful?

Im a disappointment. 

I grab my ear buds beside my bedside table and put them in. 

I look down at the phone scrolling through my playlist. 

I click a song by The Backseat Lovers but another song played instead. 

I'd never heard of it before. 

I look down at my phone to see what it was. 

Song Recommendation - Without You by Harry Nilsson 

I hear a soft piano playing in the song.  

No I can't forget this evening

As the music began to play I felt myself relax.