diary of a broken soul

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Dear diary,

As I was walking down the sands of the beach, I saw a tethered turtle.

Alive but tied up.
Weak and vulnerable.
Unable to move.
Can't speak.
Defenseless.
No freedom.

Then I've read this thought saying, "I just don't want to be tied down," a small phrase that everyone is trying to voice out every single day. I, myself, don't want to be tied down the same way as a tethered turtle, unable to swim in the midst of the sea of freedom and liberty. Because who else wants to be tied down? I want to be free from everything that binds me, whether it's a lace or chain that stops me from being who I am.

A tethered turtle is a prisoner with its chain, and I am an exact replica of that little one—aa prisoner, a tied-up person. I couldn't get away because I was tied up so tight and rigid. Then, suddenly, one day, I woke up with this feeling of hope and courage to take that chain away and be free. Because aside from being an imprisoned person, I am also a woman who desires enthusiasm, craves insouciance, and aims for success.

I want to be free and do the things that I want. Just like the little turtle, I also don't want to be tied down. But unlike that little one, I have a choice, and so I free myself.

I swam deep beneath the comfort of the surface. With courage and hope, I face and discover so many things that are unfamiliar to me. I am alone. I was consumed by the shadow of fear, but I embrace darkness, for I have darkness inside me too. I fought the coldness with my own warmth and desire to go as far as I could in this life.

The consequences of my freedom will be my learning guide towards success. I will let myself go in the middle of the ocean. The wildness of the waves is painful. It will try to drown me. I might die, but I will defy death.

I cannot be dead. I will become someone I want to be first.

I will live a long time.

Long enough until I'm done.

Even then, I will continue to swim and be one with the waves.