Big Time Insecurities

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Lilly was dropped off at the entrance of the Palm Woods, seeing as Mrs. Knight was going to run some errands and was taking Katie with her.

The young blonde smiled tight lipped, exiting the car before speed walking into the building. She was coming back from her therapy- which she had to go to twice a week - and immediately spotted Kendall sitting in the lobby, already waiting for her.

The boy smiled as Lilly walked up to him. "Hey babe-" Kendall started, but yelped when Lilly pulled him along. "Lills?" He asked, being dragged up the stairs. "Is there a reason why we're going through the stairs?"

"Too many people at the elevator." Lilly mumbled.

"Can you slow down?"

"No." Lilly responded as they exited the stairs, making her way to their apartment.

"Are you okay?" Kendall asked, barely being able to close the front door before beind dragged into Lilly's shared room. "Lilly?"

The younger blonde fell face first onto her bed. "I'm fine." Lilly answered, her voice being mumbled by her pillow while she hid under her blankets.

"I'm going to guess you said you're fine?" Kendall questioned, hearing a noise of acknowledgement. "Was therapy good today?" He asked, sitting next to the Lilly-shaped lump on the bed.

"Would you go for someone prettier?" Lilly asked, slightly muffled.

"Never. Why do you ask?" Kendall responded. Though he could only make out the words 'stupid' and 'feelings'. "You mind coming out from the blankets so I can understand you?" He asked with a small chuckle.

With a huff, Lilly threw the blankets off and sat up. "My stupid therapist wanted me to start talking about my feelings, and then she got me thinking, and that led into overthinking, and I hate overthinking cause that leads into stressing, then that leads into crying, and that leads into panic attacks, and that-" She ranted.

"Okay, okay. Lilly, breathe." Kendall interrupted, making Lilly take a deep breath. "So, you're mad at the person who you're supposed to talk about your feelings with?"

"Yes! Because she opened up a can of worms that I was happy keeping in." Lilly said, throwing her hands up in exasperation. "And that leads back to my question; would you go for someone prettier?" She continued.

"No, I wouldn't go for someone prettier. Why would I do that when I have someone beautiful right here?" Kendall said, kissing Lilly's cheek.

"Flattery will get you nowhere, Doll." Lilly grumbled. She quickly moved off the bed, standing in front of the full-length mirror. "So, you're happy with a person that looks like this?" She asked, looking at herself through the mirror.

"If you're asking if I'm happy dating you, then yes. I am very happy with you." Kendall said, going to stand behind Lilly. "Now what's going on?" He asked.

"I look terrible, you know." Lilly muttered, practically ignoring her boyfriend's question.

"No you don't."

"Of course I do. You can still see my ribs, my cheekbones are still a little too defined, and I got really thin, and-" Lilly said, but was interrupted.

"You are dealing with an eating disorder that you're getting help for. Nothing to be ashamed of." Kendall said, wrapping his arms around Lilly from behind.

"You wouldn't want to go for someone who's healthy? Someone that doesn't give into pressure from strangers on the internet?" Lilly asked, a small frown on her face. "Someone with black and red hair?" She whispered, hoping Kendall wouldn't hear the last part.

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