How I feel about my bestfriend

Before I met you

Before I met you, I always felt like I couldn't love anyone. That no one should be able to fill my heart with love and hope. However that all changed when I met you. You broke the wall that I made, you opened my heart I am opening up more you have touched my soul you made me whole again, and you make me feel alive. Now I have realized that I am in love with you. Before I met you I never knew what it was like to be able to look at someone and smile for no reason. It was only after I met you that I felt my heart begin to beat again. The light of your soul pierced through the darkness I let surround mine and brought me back to life. You showed me that there is still beauty in the world. I can't imagine my life without you in it. - S.J. West When I first met you, I honestly didn't know you were gonna be this important to me. Since the day I was born, I have been waiting to meet you. And I can never forget that magical moment when we met you said, hello my name is Matthew. And you had me at hello. The day I met you was the beginning of everything. With you I feel at peace, I feel like I can conquer the world. I always knew I loved you before I met you. I fell in love with you the very first time I met you, and I still keep falling for you over and over again. I was broken when I met you. But you made me whole again. I met you, and suddenly everything made sense. Every mistake I've made, the paths I've taken, the places I've lived and the people I've met all the decisions I've made, all led me to you. All the right ones when they led me to you. I do love you, Matthew. You mean everything to me. You are my best friend. You are my human diary I can tell you anything, You are like my other half. You mean the world to me.  I may not be able to tell you this every day but I just want you to know that you mean the world to me. The day you came into my life you have changed my life into something so beautiful and meaningful. You mean the world to me. My heart is locked and you have the key and just thinking of you makes me smile. My love for you goes on for miles. No one makes me complete as you do. You are my happiness, you are the joy that always lights up my life with passion. You mean the world to me. Without you, I'd be lost. You mean the world to me. Would you think it's weird if I told you that you take up the most space in my mind? Trying to explain how much I love you, is like trying to count the stars. You can try but it's impossible. Whenever you feel like you are worthless, just remember you mean the world to me. Perhaps, you are just one person for everyone. But, you mean the whole world to me. You are the music in me. When I hear my favorite song I think about you. You are the music in me. I love the way music inside a car makes you feel invisible; if you play the stereo at max volume, it's almost like the other people can't see into your vehicle. It tints your window, somehow. - Chuck Klosterman You are the music in my voice the magic in my heart the fire in my soul in you I found me.  You're the best part of all the songs I love. -Iain Thomas I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way. -Pablo Neruda For every day I miss you. For every hour I need you. For every minute I feel you. For every second I want you. Forever I love you. You know you're in love when you can fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams - Dr. Seuss You are not other guys I know. You are caring, funny, sweet, cute, and fun to hang out with. I rather see you for you.  I don't want to see you drunk and falling down. I would have you drink some water and have you take pain pills. And to get something to eat. I know we both can get jealous but we act like we don't have a jealous bone in our body. You don't have to hide who you truly are just to fit in for the moment just be yourself. I just want you to be happy, I just want you to succeed. I still have not told my best friend how I feel for him. Every time I am close to telling him sometimes is always stopping me. Like last year I wanted to tell him but he had a girlfriend at the time and it didn't feel right to tell him because I didn't want to get in the way. And I didn't want Matthew to choose between me and her and I also didn't want her to think that I am taking her man. Because in high school I think I have already told you this anyway it was around 2015 or 2016 that Matthew's girlfriend and ex were saying that I was taking their boyfriend from them and I keep on telling them that I wasn't. And me and Matthew were just only hanging out and we did ask them if they want to hang out with us and they said no because what me and him like to do they don't care to do. So we just stop asking them to hang out with us. I and my best friend love to play video games and talk about cars they don't and one time Matthew ask her what car was in front of the school bus she needed my help. I am still trying to understand why they were so upset with us we weren't doing anything wrong I understand we didn't hang out with them outside of school. I guess he and I just wanted to hang out with each other because We were born in the same month but different years and age. Sometime I forget that him and I are not the same age because its feels like we are the same age that why I put his birthdayon my phone with his age for I don't forget because I remember him telling me don't fir get my birthday do you remember which day and month it is on now tell me that was his exact words he had said in 2015. Do you remember I told yall what Molly had done to Matthew I was really mad at Molly what she had done to Matthew I keep on telling her to tell him I wasn't the only one told her to tell him. I felt like he should know that see wants to see other people but no she wanted to date my best friend and other guys at the same time I am still kinda mad at Molly I am upset now I understand she doesn't want to be with Matthew but she shouldn't had used him for almost 3 and half years she should had talk to him. And say hey I think we should see other people or something like that. I have Ideal how Matthew is feelings I had dated someone done that something to me. And now I have mixed feelings on dating. I just want Matthew to date someone who will not used him and will love him no matter what happens. And to always be there for him with ups and downs and to always make him feels wanted and safe someone who want to spend  forever after with him and start a family. I don't want to see him hurt because that will hurt me  too. I will see you in part 20 on How I feel about my best friend.