How I feel about my bestfriend

My best friend and I are going to places

There are friends, there is family, and then there are friends that become family. We are going to be best friends forever... besides...you already know too much. True friends aren't the ones who make your problems disappear. They are the ones who won't disappear when you're facing problems. Some people arrive and make such a beautiful impact on your life, that you can barely remember what life was like without them. Best friends make the good times better and the hard times easier. A good friend will help you up when you fall... But a best friend will help you up, laugh, and trip you again. Best friends don't necessarily have to talk every day. They don't even need to talk for weeks. But when they do, it's like they never stopped talking. Everyone has a friend during each stage of life but only lucky ones have the same friend in all stages of life. " A friend knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow." - William Shakespeare If you find just one true friend in your lifetime, you have been truly blessed. A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words. - C.S. Lewis's Best friends are hard to find because the very best one is already mine. "A good friend is aware of all of your stories. And he/she helped you write them." That's when I realized what a true friend was. Someone who would always love you the imperfect you, then confused you, then wrong you because that is what people are supposed to do. - r.j.i. A good friend knows all your best stories a best friend has lived them with you see the difference? In my best friend, I find a second self. Best friends make the world beautiful. Best friends forever a best friend is someone who makes you laugh even when you think you'll never smile again. We all need one friend who understands. I have learned that the friends who hold your hand through the rough times and watch your soul twirl during the best, are the ones you should spend your lifetime dancing with. - Stacie. Martin, He's your best friend because he believes in you when you don't believe in yourself. My best friend thinks you for standing by my side when times get hard, think you for making me laugh when I don't even want to smile. My best friends are like fairy tales, they've been there since once upon a time and will be there forever after. ''A cute friend is someone who knows all the things about you and still loves you.'' - Elbert Hubbard Memorable people in life will be the friends who loved you when you weren't very. A best friend is there when you need a shoulder to cry on. But best friends are ready with a shovel to hurt the person that makes you cry! F.R.I.E.N.D F=Fright for you R=Resepect you I= Lnvolve you N= Need you D= Deserve you S=Save you. You have to let people go. Everyone in your life is meant to be in your journey, but not all of them are meant to stay till the end. We are best friends always remember that if you fall, I will pick you up after I finish laughing. A best friend won't agree with you to make you happy. If anything, they'll say what needs to be said, no matter if you want to hear it or not. Your best friend is the one who overlooks your downfalls and knows you the longest, It's about who walked into your life. My friends the memories of the nights that lasted forever and the days that went by so slowly, the nights that will replay in our heads all through high school as our best night ever the boy's we kissed and the girl's the guy kissed. The boys that have broken our hearts with the promises they never kept. The girls broke the guy's hearts with the promises they never kept, the alcohol that we drank on the holidays all too quickly on nights when everything seemed to be going wrong. The other girls and guys hated us for being "perfect'' and envied the life we led. So here's to you guys...... the friends that have stayed by my side. When I didn't know who I was, the friend that I would never trade for anything because you guys are my life. To my best friend, you are the person who holds me in my bad times, the one who dances with me in my happiness. I laugh harder with you, and I feel more like myself when you're near. Although I may not always be there with you, I will always be there for you. Always together, never apart, maybe in distance, but never at heart. Our unique friendship means the world to me knowing how much you care. If either of us needs a listening ear, the other is always there, right on time. Having you as my best friend is a precious gift that I cherish every day and I hope you know that I value our friendship more than mere words can describe. A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down. - Arnold H. Glasgow Best friends are for life, they remain in your heart forever. Best friends are there with you when no one stands beside you this is to my best friend forever I so love you! Best friends forever bff '' We'll be friends forever, won't we, Matthew?" asked Amber "Even longer,'' Matthew answered. Best friends, best friends are very special people in your life. They are the first people you think about when you make plans. They are the first people you go to when you need someone to talk to. You will phone them up just to talk about nothing or the most important things in your life. When you're sad they will try their hardest to cheer you up. They give the best hugs in the world! They are the shoulder to cry on because you know that they truly care about you. In most cases, they would take a bullet for you, coz it would be too painful to watch you get hurt. A good friend is like a four-leaf clover; hard to find and lucky to have. Irish Proverb ''True friend in life is someone that makes you giggle somewhat more intense, smile more splendidly, and live much better.'' You are my best friend because....you are you, you let me be me and still...... we love each other! Friendship isn't who you've known the longest, it's about who walked into your life, said ''I'm here for you'' and proved it. ''True friends are like family, which supports you in every problem.'' ''The glory of friends is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile, nor the joy of companionship, it's the spiritual inspiration, that comes to you when you discover that someone else, believes in you and is willing to trust you with a friendship.'' Even though we don't see as often as I would have loved, each time I see you, I remember how much our friendship means to me. All the memories we share are evergreen in my heart. Thank you for being part of my life. If I could give you one thing in my life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me. A friend's promise if you need to talk, I'll listen. If you need to cry, I'll hold you. If you feel lost, I'll help guide you. If you need to be angry, I'll let you. If you're feeling afraid, I'll comfort you. If you're feeling attacked, I'll be your defense. If you need to lean awhile, I'll give you a shoulder. If you're feeling unsure, I'll be your confidence. If you're feeling alone, I'll be the friend who won't leave you.If you need to learn to trust again, I'll prove to you that you can.''Things are never quite as scary when you've got a best friend.'' - Bill Watterson I can't promise to solve all your problems but I'll promise you won't have to face them alone. Together, forever a best friend isn't someone who's just always there for you. It's someone who understands you a bit more than you understand yourself. True friends are never apart maybe in distance never in heart. Love me now, hate me never, best friends forever! "Somewhere, there is someone who dreams of your smile and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile. So when you are lonely, remember it's true, somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.'' Fyi I am thinking about you right now. We all need one friend who understands what we're not saying. Some conflict in friendship, Does not mean it ends, Until my last breath, You will be my best friend friends forever. Dear Matthew, Please stay with me till my last breath I don't want to miss you because u are the best thing I ever got in my life and you are the person who loved me when I forgot to love myself - Amber Haywood Friendship transfers a stranger into a relative. ''My journey so far has been difficult, but whenever things are really bad I remember the best reaction I got from my friends and family and I know that everything is going to be okay. Many people will walk in and out of your life, But only true friends leave footprints in your heart. You can always tell when two people are best friends because they are having fun then it makes sense for them to be having. A toast to my best friend. We may live miles apart, but you are always in my heart. And no matter where you are, I know you're only a phone call away. You are my forever friend. - Helene Lerner Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours. Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is a forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. A special day to say that I care a special way to say that I am there in everything you desire and will be with you forever here is a late Happy Birthday my bestie! Stay blessed in life! You are my always & forever. My happily ever after. My soulmate. My dream came true. My one & only. My shoulder to lean on. My heart to melt into. My best friend, My everything, For always! My best friend has made me laugh, wiped my tears, and hugged me tight. Watched me succeed. It saw me fail. Kept me strong. My best friend is a promise that I will have a best friend forever. You are my heart, my soul, my treasure, my today, my tomorrow, my forever, and my everything. My best friend sees the best in me, even when I can't see it in myself. I'd do anything for him! I don't know what I would have done so many times in my life if I hadn't had my best friend. I don't need you in my life, I need you in my life. You're not my friend, you're my best friend. I don't like you, I love you! And I'm glad I found you and you found me because I was lost without you! If you ask me how long I'll be your friend? My answer will be I don't know because don't know which one is longer. Forever and always? Dear Matthew, thank you for putting up with me for laughing at my terrible jokes for sharing your food with me for protecting me for always being there for me for telling me the truth about the friendship we've shared, and for everything, I love you, you're the best. Dear best friend, please stay in my life forever because you're one of the best things to ever happen to me. You have been my best friend through thick and thin. I cannot imagine life without you. I love you, Matthew. Best friends it's a promise, not a label. Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them last or the amount of time since you last talked. It's about that very moment when you're doing something and you wish that they were right there with you! I MISS YOU! Cowboy. Top 10 reasons you are my best friend! 10.) Seems like we've known each other forever. 9.) You tell me I don't look fat. 8.) You laugh at my jokes. 7) We like the same junk food. 6.) Long phone conversations with no silent places or should I call it a long coffee station lol with no silent places 5.) You'd share your last piece of chocolate maybe or maybe not we will never know lol. 4.) You always understand. 3.) You've seen me without make-up - and you didn't scream. 2.) You give bad hair day sympathy. 1.) And the 1# Reason ''You're My Best Friend'' is if I was lost - You'd find me.'' Our inside jokes are too many to name. When we're apart. It's never the same when we're together it's nothing but fun replacing you just can't be done. Best friend forever, Each time I see you, I am reminded of how special our friendship is. It doesn't seem to matter how long it has been between visits; we pick up right where we left off. We have shared so much through the years. Thank you for being a part of my life. One of the greatest blessings in my life is our friendship. When I need to talk, you are there to ''just listen.'' You are the person that I can laugh with about the most important life events. You ''know me,'' and that saves words sometimes... Thank you for sharing your friendship with me. You are my best friend. If ever there is a tomorrow when we're not together... There is something you must always remember, you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you. Why do we need best friends because they laugh at the same stupid things we do? Because they give us honest advice. Because they will be there for us, even if they're thousands of miles away. Because they celebrate with us when we're at our best, but still love us at our worst. ''A day without you is like a pot without a single honey.'' Best friends are those rare people who ask how we are and then wait to hear the answer. knowing me I am still losing my mind waiting on your answer to the text I sent you a few months ago I am going crazy because I need to know are you ok? Are you doing well? How life? How your family is doing well? And I don't even have the answer now I am sad I feel like I am going to cry. You already know how I and Matthew met, and you already know how I had felt for him the first year. I had met him and he had told his family and his teacher that I was his girlfriend at his graduation party. I bet my face had to turn red and you know I was drinking my Sunkist orange soda and then I started choking when he told everyone that I was his girlfriend. I told myself when I became his girlfriend I knew he had a girlfriend and why did he tell everyone that I was his girlfriend a lot of questions with no answers. He did ask me do I wanted to go inside with him and some of his family to play video games I think I had told him no because I couldn't think my mind was everywhere. First I was thinking I have to tell Molly why isn't she at his graduation party. Did Matthew tell her or did he forget to tell her about the graduation party when I got home I think I had to call her or text her what Matthew had told everyone at his graduation party. Molly was mad like really mad and when I and Molly and my friends went to high school the following year we had a half day at school. And Matthew had asked me to come over to his house I told him sure because I had nothing to do anyway I probably would have gone home and slept and I did want to hang out with Matthew. I did text Molly fyi his ex-girlfriend she was very upset that he had not asked her to come over to his house and she asked me what I and Matthew are going to do at his house I told her I didn't know I told her I am going to text him and ask what I and him are going to do. I think she was thinking about something that wasn't pg 13 because of the way she was texting me lol. She doesn't need to worry about that I wasn't planning on jumping his bones or anything sexual but I don't know about Matthew though. Anyway, I had texted Matthew and asked him what we were going to do not going to lie I was having an anxiety attack waiting for him to text me back. He told me that we could play games or board games or watch a movie and I think I told him okay then I texted Molly and told her that Matthew had to text me anyway when I got to his house he was just talking and things like about my father and other things like school, life, work and talking about fast and the furious. Anyway, let's fast forward to twenty-nineteen my last year in high school, or if you are to call it the last year in hell lol if they still call it sorry not trying to be funny. Anyway, I was still in high school just turned seventeen and some people call me queen of mean and I don't know why. I was in the pep squad and found art dance for four years and when I planned to hang out with Matthew pep squad and fine art dance had other plans for me that's one thing I didn't miss from high school. The dress code always tells girls not to wear anything that shows any skin it is distracting. I told myself how about the guy some of the clothes show some skin and they don't get in trouble. And don't even get me started about their shorts you can see their private part which is very distracting if you know what I mean. I remember it was my time to pick a movie I think it was in 2017 and I had to pick Baywatch well that was a bad idea I had learned never to take a guy to a rated R movie because he would tell you what he wants to do to his ex-girlfriend if you know what I mean. And I had to keep telling myself don't think about it keep it pg 13 girls keep it in your pants and do not jump his pants even when I want to. Anyway, sometimes cowboy calls me when I am using the restroom I know tmi and he asks me why I sound different I told him that I don't know it's probably the room. He asked me are you sure I told him yeah I am sure. And I asked him what he was doing and he told me that he was taking a shower I wasn't expecting that at all if he had seen my face it would have been red. I think I told him oh and I was trying not to think how he looks like with nothing on he shouldn't have now my mind is showing me things I wouldn't even think about. Anyway, let's get back to 2019 we would always go out to eat or go to the movie and go to amazing jumps. We would play video games and I always told him that I was going to win then he said not I am going to win then I told him no you not I am. I guess you see what I am talking about lol every day we learn something new about each other like our birthdays are in the same month and day apart that we are both old and that we like the same things. And sometimes we talk at the same time saying the same thing and we make up words and other people look at us like we are crazy. Sometimes people ask me if Matthew is my twin brother or boyfriend because they told me that I and Matthew look very close. I told them no he is not my twin brother and he is not my boyfriend I think because I don't even remember him asking me we are just best friends. But it does make me sad that he and I are not dating but I keep telling myself that I will get over it and the more I keep telling myself the more I will believe it and you know that will not even happen. Over the years I tried dating other people it didn't feel right like someone was missing and I kept on talking about Matthew so I stopped dating Matthew was one of my reasons for stopping dating and my other reason is my father he doesn't want me to date you will know what I am talking about if you read my other story called my story. My father had messed me up but I don't like talking about it so I wanted to write about it and tell everyone my story. And my other reason is I had been cheated on before and I guess I had given up on dating or I have found the right guy but there is no such thing as a right guy. I am sure my heart and body had already picked someone and I did try to Matthew how I feel but every time I try what if comes into my mind and then I get all nervous and I can't think straight and then I get shy and then I will tell him nevermind or its nothing. Matthew make me feels thing I had never felt before and it's new to me and I don't know what to do about it. It's like my body and mind are telling me to go to him like something is calling me to him and all I want to do is be next to him all the fucking time. And I keep telling myself it's all in my head and I am finally losing it I had lost my mind. Anyway, I couldn't always call him or text him because his mother took his phone and I got really sad not seeing him every day or not talking to him every day or texting him every day it didn't feel the same. I felt like a part of me was with him and a part of him was with me and I had to pretend that I was ok when I wasn't. A lot was going on at the time my mom let someone stay with us but I am not saying his name let's call him. Sam let me tell you how it all started well when outside to feed my bogs some bog food and I started calling my dogs and telling them to come and eat their food then I hear someone call me and I freaked out and ran back into calling my mom and I told her that some man he calling me when I was trying to feed the dogs and she went outside and started yelling who the fuck is calling my daughter is someone asking for there ass beating you know I don't play this shit when I find out you look my daughter in a wrong way you have to go through me and you can kiss my black ass motherfucker and she went back inside and starting calling our family members and telling them about it. I think a few days later he came to my mother's house my mother was sitting outside when he came and started talking to her he told my mother he was the one who had called me the other day and he wanted to know are the dogs were ours. My mother told him yes and he asked us do we wanted to go out to eat he was also drinking and my mother agreed to go he told my mother he would walk back home a change clothes and he asked my mother to call she pick him up and take up to where we are going to eat at. Let's skip to a few days later he asks my mother to go to his house and I don't want to know what they were doing she came back late it was ten something at night. My mother asked him to fix the bathroom and he told my mother that my mother and I could live at his place when he was working in the bathroom. For the past few months, he has been asking for money to pay for his alcohol and smokes and to pay for the tools he needs for work and he also asked me and my mother for more money to pay for rent every two keeps. And my mother had to find out that he wasn't paying his rent and he wasn't fixing the bathing that he said he was fixing and he had gotten kicked out on June 10. I have been telling my mother that I have a bad feeling about him and that he is using you and I had told some of my friends and they had said the same thing but I told her to leave his ass. He gives us a lot of reasons to get out of his life. Let's stop talking about him anyway all of my friends and some of my family members and my mother's friends say I have feelings for Matthew more than a best friend and they tell me that I need to be honest with myself and to be honest with him too. How can I be honest with myself I don't know how everything will play out because I don't want to get hurt and I have mixed feelings about telling him how I feel because he might not feel the same way and I think I am not really to face it. My friends always tell me to make the move and tell him how I feel about him not keep it all inside and stop thinking the what if because when you think about the what if it will hold you back and you will never tell him how you feel. I always tell myself I will tell him when it is the right time but there is no right time because you don't know if he or she is seeing someone. And all you want to do is run away and never face it because you know you will never have them because they are not yours and you are not theirs. Do you know how it feels when you want to be with someone and you know you need to let them go and you know you don't want to let them go? And all you want to do is be next to them and never let them go and when you look away they are gone and you do not know what to do. And all you want to do is run back to them and when you look into their eyes and you can't look away and you can look into their eye all day and when you look into their eye you are trying to see what they are feeling and thinking and there eyes bring you in and you can't look away because their eye is holding you in. And you want to be loved by them and stay with them and get to know one another when I look into Matthew's eye I can't think and I can't talk and I get shy. When I and next to him sometimes I can talk to him without getting shy and we always know when we need each other and whenever we need one other. I know we fight from time to time and we won't always agree with one another on the things we want to do. We will have our ups and downs from time to time no matter what we go through you are always here for me and I am always here for you no matter what happens in our life. Thank you for reading Part 4 how I Feel for My Best Friend and Part 5 how I Feel for my best friend is coming out soon.