Shared Feelings | A RinSagi Story

Chapter 25 - Reality

Time skip: 5 years later...

As of now, the first generation of BlueLock has finally been released, and are already living a normal life. Although they are still playing football, they get to live on the outside once more. That first generation is Isagi and Rin's team. They were given a mansion for them to live in. They have their own garden, own rooms, and own things. As you enter the mansion, the first thing you will see is a red carpet with a feint gold on the sides, A chandelier, and a stair that's as clean as it can be.

The first time they entered the mansion, they were greeted by all the workers that would work for them. They have their own Buttler called Mr. Kiefer, Their Chefs, their Guards/Assassins named Mr. And Mrs. Forger, and their Maids, Lianne and Gianne. They are trusted and are tested. They came from different countries but were fluent in Japanese since they were trained to do so. As the first generation of BlueLock was inside, Ego has been training all of them on how they will do the job. That's why they were trained to be smart and attentive at all times.

Isagi's Point Of View...
It's been three months since we were all released from BlueLock and were sent to stay in this mansion. Brother did tell me that this mansion is only temporary since they are building a place where they get to have their own houses near each other. And those who want to see each other again can stay there. I told them about it and they agreed to live there when we were all done in this mansion. Everyone has been so busy here in the outside world that I barely see them. Especially my Rin! We barely had any time to talk! One time, I finally confronted him...

"Love?" I went inside his room and sat beside him. He was sitting on the bed with his laptop on his lap and so I went and sat beside him. "Can we talk for a second? Please?" He looked at me and put away his laptop. "Is this about my work?" I looked away as a sign of yes and he reassured me saying, "Love, Don't worry, I will soon be done here. After I pass my papers I will finally be able to take a break from work" "Then what? After taking a break what will you do? Go back to work of course. Haa, can't you just find a job that isn't far away and gives you the right amount of rest? I'm worried about you." He smiled at me, held my face with his bare hands, and told me that he will retire soon. But I don't know when that "soon" will be.

I told him that I can't live without him. But what he's doing now is killing me. He got a job in just 3 weeks after we were released. He signed up for that and got the job easily. At first, he was fine and he doesn't really leave the house much. But the more he makes, the more often he goes out. Damn it! I am a billionaire and so is he. But why is he trying so hard to continue doing this job of his?? What's so important about it? Does he really like this job? Does he like leaving me alone in our room after sleeping with me? Was he doing it intentionally?

He left me early in the morning, not a letter nor a text from him was received. Leaves at 4 am sharp and Comes back at 11 pm and sometimes even late. I constantly worry about his situation! He barely eats and sleeps! And I kept overthinking whether he hated me or it just worked. When I ask for a walk, just a walk at the park or somewhere, what he always says is that he's busy. He forgot our monthsary, my birthday, and all the other special things that were very much special to me. I don't know if they mean a thing anymore.

Soon after my talk with Rin, I got tired of confronting him, asking him to change his job, and asking him to just resign. When he leaves early in the morning, when he comes back late, everything...everything is now just like a routine. Soon after, I slept in my bedroom, I locked the door, locked the window, and hoped that Rin would come and find me when I was not in our room. It went like this for days. What the fuck is so good about that damned job? Is it really because he's found someone else? When he comes home at night, he always looks like he got plenty of rest but is still tired. I wouldn't blame him if the job is that tiring. But why leave me alone? Why make me suffer like this?

After living like shit for days, I finally confronted him. Once again. "Rin, can we talk?" He looked shocked. Was it because I called him by his name? "U-uh yeah sure" he patted the bed as though he wanted me to sit beside him. So I walked closer to him and sat beside him. "Can you be honest with me please?" He nodded and answered me saying "Yes of course" I looked at my hands as I fiddled with them. I catched my breath making me sigh and I said "Do you still love me Rin?" He looked at my way "If course I-!" "If so then why? Why are you always not here!? Why are you always so unreachable!? Why is your phone always off!? Why would you leave me early in the morning without any letter or chat!? Why would you leave me alone!? Why are you being like this!? Do you know how much I am suffering now!? I can't live without you! I told you that! But why does it feel as though you're always going to work because there's someone else!?" I was hyperventilating. I couldn't breathe. I try to relax but my heart is just so tight that I can't. I finally relaxed and stopped hyperventilating and I asked Rin "Are you... Tired of us Rin? Do you not love me anymore?" I left him stunned at my words. He was looking down and It looked as if the answer to that question was yes. I left the room with a big bang on the door.

I guess this is it. I guess it's ending. I guess this is when reality hits. We're not really meant for each other, aren't we? I went into my room, locked the door and closed the window. "Finally, I need rest. I just want to sleep and never wake up. Saving us was a terrible idea brother. I guess we won't end up together even in another world. I'm tired. I'll just get some sleep..." And with that, I finally fell asleep.

To Be Continued..!!