Recovering Love

Part 10

"Hold up Nayely"
"Oh hey I was waiting for you"
We headed out to the front of the school.
"Do ya wanna go to Mickey D's"
"Sure," I said
We got there and he bought me a McChicken and an iced coffee.
"Now tell me what's up"
"Frankie look it's complicated"
"Why don't you want to tell me maybe I can help plus I care for you"
"I'm scared you might not like me anymore and we will stop talking to me"
"I wouldn't do that, especially to you in known you for so many years and we've been really great friends. Remember back in kinder when someone would hit you or something and you'd start crying and I would give you my cookie just to make you happy"
"Oh god how I wish we could go back to those days, life was all fun and games and i was always happy...I remember how we would always hang out as a kid," I said smiling uncontrollably
"Do you also remember when we promised that when we were older we would still be friends"
"Yess why would I forget that"
"So are you going to tell me"
"Well my dad left the house yesterday and I also told him off..i told him once he stepped out the door I wouldn't consider him as my father"
"I'm sorry nayely"
He grabbed my hand
"I just hate my life so much I can't do it anymore I just can't there's days when I want to give up"
"Don't ever say that keep that head up, whenever you think of ending your life remember that there's people who love and care for you now imagine how they would feel especially me, I love you and seeing you like this breaks my heart just knowing you want to give up breaks me"
I started to cry. He hugged me very tight and I felt like I was home in a save place. When he hugged me I felt protected I also felt loved.
"I always act like I'm fine and everyone thinks I'm ok, but when the lights are off and I'm all alone that's when my tears start to fall"
"Sometimes you just gotta think in god and believe in him it helps."
"I'm thankful god hasn't let me go, because I've let him go lots of times. He rescued me and continues to amaze me with things that are beyond what i deserve for myself"
"That's what I'm saying," Frankie said whipping my tears
"Right now, i am a mixture of very happy and very sad. And I'm trying to figure it all out, all these feelings and emotions and words and thoughts, and what they all mean. Everything I feel is a contradiction of itself, and I do not understand any of it"
"Give yourself some time baby girl, no matter what I have to do I'll make you the happiest girl alive it's all up to you, do you want to be my girlfriend?"
I was in shock