IT’S A EUROPEAN STORY, ABOUT DREAM/FAMILY/LOVE/SECRET’S
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He looked away and didn't seem to want to listen. “Merch we'll be happy! together! I'll marry you, I'm here Merch listen okay?”
"You don't know what you're saying. Look at me" she stopped "I haven't reached anything yet.. I still have many dreams Crest, Crest and I know, i know, You too." She pointed at me on my chest, she breathed for a moment.
"Let's reach those together-"
"no, no, I can't do it even if I want to" I looked away, "listen" She made me face her "I am thankful and grateful, that i met you as a friend, reliable. You're totally fine and you're just not fit for me.” I walked away. I don't want to listen to what she says, but she follows, keeps talking
“You will still meet a successful, intelligent and loving woman. deserving.. deserving of you Believe it! Crest believe me it's not me-”
“I love you. Merch” I faced her
“That was not me-”
“I love you” I said softly.
“It can't be”
“why-”
“i don't love you” That made me think.
(MERCHIANDRA)
“You don't what?” His eyebrows met, he didn't seem to believe “You sure of that?” I slowly nodded. He covered his face “what else can i do? Just to be with you.”
“You will be happy, not even with me.”
“Maybe we can talk in other day, maybe you're just shocked” he was about to leave when,
“One more thing.” He turned again “I'm sorry, you made a mistake. This is not like that. I hope you understand, this won't work.” I looked at him with sadness in his eyes but I could feel that he was in a bad mood. He forced a smile. then turned and walked away.
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THE DAY HE LET ME
“They say Creston has left, since when?” My mother talked when she entered my room.
“He's been thinking about that for a long time” I said, and he sat down on my bed.
“Do you love him?” She suddenly asked. I look at her into her eyes. and deviate too.
“Ma..” I continued putting the things away.
“Do you love him-”
“I love you more. and Papa” I burst into tears, and couldn't hold back “Yes, I love, I love him.. I lied to him. But that's all. I chose to be alone, the important thing. is I'm here, for you, and, and what's the point? He is gone. Let's forget about it”
“You love him. my love, do not burden us. You can follow what makes your heart happy” I was silent for a moment, letting fall the clothes i was holding.
“What makes me happy. is to follow my dreams. See his happiness with no regrets. Do you think we will be fine if the day comes when he repents with me? What I want. is be here, with you because Ma,” I came to her feet and knelt down, looking at her “Ma I love you.. don't think about me anymore.”
“merch” I stood up,
“It's not just love. the girls, they say should stay at home, read books, be good while being polite, act according to the right manners and when they are at the right age. get married, have children. Not only that, Ma. A woman can do more. More. and I'm so sick, I'm so sick of it to think that's all we can do. Such a system.”
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After the day of our conversation. that was the last one. Creston and I, never saw each other again, since that day. I just heard from his closes friend, that he has left for Paris. He left our town.
Dear Diary.
now is 1862 eighth of September,
Carmeñia left and went to France for her to stay there to work and achieve her dream. Sometimes She comes to our town, to visit. Sayna has separated with her husband since their got married, and is currently pregnant with their first child, after 8 years. Finally, I am happy for her. Papa and Mama, are always with me. Before but now they're gone. i am the only one, alone but i guess, not lonely. I am happy with what I have achieved today. In my dream of becoming a famous writer. Little by little, the stories I created are being recognized, and I hope that others will also learn a lesson from it.
I also think of you Crest, who left. Even if you left me, I understand. I hope you will always feel my love. Do not doubt, because yes, I love you too. Sorry. I hope our two paths will meet again because I miss you so much my happiness.
. Love. Merch
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PRESENT | 1864
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"We are not. getting married, not anymore" I'm confused.
"w-what?"
"I have someone with me." we looked at each other, Carmen smiled at me like she wanted to say, ‘everything will be fine.’ "Crest" She looked at the door, me too
I did not expect. We looked at each other "he will explain it" Carmen came closer, and hugged me. "I'll leave you both for now." As she said. She came out. and the two of us were left in the room.
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"What is-"
"why-" we said together.
"You.. You go first,"
"no, You first"
"Why the Wedding has cancelled?" He couldn't answer immediately "if the reason is.. about me. Don't worry i‘m-”
"He loves someone else. We're fine, don't.. worry" He couldn't even look straight now. "and definitely you're not the reason"
"Are you sure?"
"hmmhm" he nodded.
"That's it?" I sat down, processing in my mind the things happening. "and you? Are you okay?"
"the diary." He looked at me straight in my eyes "I read the. Diary" I feel a lil nervous, and my heart starting beating so fast, like wanted to go out of my rib cage. I stood up.
It was missing yesterday. Cause is it on him? and he read- “Since when?”
"How long, how long? Hiding? Do you really have no plans to say"
-“for what else? When I know that, you and my sister are getting married. My Sister Crest! Do you understand?" I got massage of the middle of my nose because of I'm stressing out. "I didn't know and I still don't know if I should."
-“if I should ask you again? Will you going to take this opportunity?" he came closer to me. Our nose are almost touched. He's breathing heavily, holding both of my arms "you're still the one Merch. Even if you ask Carmen she knows. Everyone knows you're still. my feelings for you are the same." I suddenly looked at the bracelet He was wearing.
He smiled. his eyes tells everything, with mix emotions.
I hugged him tightly. "I love you." I faced him again "wooohh i haven't said it in a long time. At last"
I was shocked. When he suddenly kissed me, gently. One of his hands was holding the back of my head while I was holding on his arm and the other hand was holding on the side of his neck.
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Since that day. The story of our lives is just begin, this time we will make it, together.
