His Hands. || 𝘼𝙤'𝙣𝙪𝙣𝙜

ten

Italics = thoughts or flashbacks
Bold = Metkayina sign language

"I felt it Kiri, I really did." I say as I held onto her hand with her other hand on top of mine.

Kiri has told me that she can always feel Eywa's heartbeat, and that it feels so mighty. She was thrilled when I told her I felt it too, but she was concerned when I told her about what she said to me.

Her connection with Eywa was truly so beautiful.

"What do you think Eywa is trying to tell you?"

"I.. I don't know," I say as my eyes dart back and forth between both her eyes.

Maybe it was because I was so close to shutting Neteyam out and she didn't want me to, maybe because I was so close to going back to the old Ra'mora, or maybe it was because I was debating on opening up to my family about my nightmare.

She was probably telling me the outcome of all of them were bad if I did all all of those things.

"It could be a lot of things."

Kiri smiles warmly at me, "Eywa will give you a sign when you are on the right path."

I nod at her and returned a smile to her.

"For now, just let her help you. She is always within us and she will guide you to the right path."

"Thank you, Kiri. I really appreciate you, sister."

"I am just so glad I can finally have someone to talk to about this!" She beams as we let go of each other's hands.

"I'm going to sleep now, we have lessons earlier in the morning tomorrow." I say as I get up and stretch.

"Goodnight, Mora."

"Night night, Kiri."

I yawned as I made my way over to me and Neteyam's section of the hut. He was already laying down on his mat.

"Hey, Teytey." I greet as I sat down on my own mat beside him.

He turned his head to the side slightly, "Hey."

"You alright?"

"I'm just thinking."

"About?"

He hesitates for a moment, then sits up and looks at me. I immediately noticed the amount of concern in his eyes.

"I'm worried about you."

I swallowed thickly.

'Well shit. Now I feel bad.'

"Why?" In reality, I knew exactly why. "There's nothing to worry about."

"I don't want you to go back to how you were before, how am I supposed to not worry about that?"

Well shit. He got me there.

I sighed heavily and grabbed both his hands in my own. Just then, I noticed tears were welled up in his eyes.

Fuck. Now I feel really bad. How could I be so selfish to even consider that idea of shutting everyone out in the first place?

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"I promise you that I won't go back to that, and-" I swallowed the lump in the back of my throat as I felt my eyes begin to sting, "and that I promise to never shut you out again."

He sniffled as a tear rolled down his cheek. He blinked away the other tears, "You better not, skxawng." He says with a bit of a chuckle.

I could tell he was trying to lighten the mood, and it caused a small smile to form on my face and I let out a chuckle too.