Sane

Lucid

Celene's POV

Ok so mi waste mi time a bawl ova man. Sex is so dumb caz why do I feel so attached by the hip to the point where he had to give me his phone for me to shut up and believe him when I've been mindlessly trusting this man this whole time.

The rest of the week went by kinda fast, he was already finished setting up his house after all the damage that was done but he was still sleeping over and would appear at 12 am to sit out on the balcony and be in bed by 2:30. I loved having him here but it was frustrating me that he wasn't even trying to touch me. I even tried to push against him and while his body reacted he was fast asleep and not actually paying me any attention. I managed to balance my thoughts and only got lost in my thoughts every once in a while. But when I'm alone, they haunt me. What will our next time be like?

I was stuck making breakfast for him, this man want pancakes and eggs wid bacon and orange juice and fruits. If mi did know mi pretend fi cyah cook.

"Dru waah come over next week, a seh him waah see Aunty Celene. Woulda nice if yuh come over next week.." He said not asking or telling me just suggesting which is an improvement from giving me random instructions.

"Miss him too enuh suh mi aguh fawud" I replied and got a small smile from him.

"Yuh finish pack b?"

"Yh just waah stop a supermarket before mi leave out"

"Send mi a list and mi order it and just pick yuh up and leave b, naah fi pressure all a that". One thing wid him, mi nuffi do nth fi miself. The other day I didn't even know where to get taxi to get home caz I'm not sure people in this community even take taxis. I am so cared for I don't even have to do anything much, he keeps my cupboards full, stills buys me food, drives me everywhere and fixes every problem I can think of. Bet him coulda buy mi degree.

"Yuh nuh feel like yuh do too much?"

"Too much b?, mi realize seh yuh love yuh independence and a try mi best fi do the least and yaah talk bout too much??" He sounded offended.

"You gave me a whole apartment and made me in charge of the entire complex giving me a whole job before I'm even qualified, you give me everything. I can't recall the last time I spent money from my purse"

"Mi nuh see the problem, yuh just love try find the problem when it nuh exist" he said ending the conversation.

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Ranique just came to pick me up and we were ended to the country side. I watched all the tall cooperate buildings slowly fade into roadside shops and minimarts and bars. The air was fresher and I rolled the windows down taking in the cool fresh air. Deeven tell har mi a come up, want har feel well nice. Ranique was focused on driving but he occasionally asked me if I'm ok.

Mi need fi get something fi eat.
"Can stop somewhere that's selling food please?"

"Sure Princess" he told me. That gave me butterflies tbh. I got some jerk chicken and festival but I bought some jerk extra caz I know how much she loved it.

As we went up that hill and I could see the gate I started feeling anxious. A car dropping me off, all the stuff I'm taking with me, she's gonna ask questions, can I tell the truth.

I was about to take the bags out but "Boss  Man" nuh nuff and start tek out long time. It was a little after 7 so she was watching news I'm sure.

"I'll take them in, text yuh as soon as mi settle" I said trying to dismiss him before she peeped out the window to see what's happening since the car lights were on and pointing in the yard.

"Mek mi carry the heavy bag dem and at least put it pon the veranda Celene. Yuh cyah lift it" I rolled my eyes at him.

"Suh yuh get fk enuh. Cyah tek telling" he murmured walking in like a him and mi grandfather buy the land. He carried both bags and came back, gave me a peck and reminded me to call him before bed before driving off.

I walked up to the front door and knocked, I heard "Who that?" And like a proud Jamaican my answer was "A me". When the door opened I was pulled into the biggest hug. Tears came to me eyes. The love I get from her will forever be the best. A grandmother is truly a blessing.

"Wahpm mi grandbaby?" She asked looking into my face. "Then a coulda wah mek yuh fat suh?" She asked after looking at me longer.

Caz the boy a fatten mi fi tie mi. "Just comfortable" I said while lifting the bag, he was right it was heavy. "Where yuh get money fi a carry all a this?" She asked but I just smiled.

"Yuh gwan, Tom old but Tom nuh fool, think mi nuh see? Mek mi see him tomorrow if a good person yuh pick up" well nothing passes them enuh.

"Sure, but how are you?" I asked while I started unpacking the groceries.

"Mi alright a look pon you the betta one" she said giving me one of the most quizzical looks I ever witnessed.

"Celene, yuh pregnant?"

The sweet corn fell from my hand. "No" I said super quick caz weh that come from. "Just a ask yuh baby, naah fi a jump suh" she said with a small smile. Nuh know weh that come from enuh.

We spoke for some time before I felt the wave of sleep wash over me. We said our farewells for the night and I went to my old room and was out like a light in a split second.

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The bright early morning sun was shining on my face. But anuh that mek mi wake up. A who a mek Grandma buss dem big laugh deh. One piece a laughing inna the kitchen. Mi hurry up guh brush mi teeth and wash mi face caz a waah gwan inna John shop.

I walked into the kitchen and to my surprise there sat my bf and my grandmother laughing hard. Then dissa expressionless gorilla coulda laugh?

"Good morning" I said. They barely acknowledged me going back to their conversation. They were talking about someone who I'm unfamiliar with but it sounded like his family. The only family I know is Dru. I went back to my room and made my bed.
I came back out and finally got acknowledgment for my presence.
"Good morning snores" I smiled and took a spot at the dining table. I watched him interact and I was surprised. He was making her laugh and he knew exactly how to engage her. We have pressed plantain and curry chicken. I missed this.

"Celene only ketch half the recipe it seems" was all it took for Grandma to blush. This man could manipulate anyone no wonder he's so good at being a crook. We ate together and spoke meanwhile. Had me thinking how tied I am to him. He's always three steps ahead and in control and all I have to do is relax, what will happen if he changes one day.