Losing faith.

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I didn't think much about my action. I was drunk, confused, frustrated and I knew I did something I shouldn't have.
He didn't budge, not even his lips. I was delusional and hurt myself alone.
He pushed me away and looked confused, half furious, perhaps. His face said it all. He hated me, obviously.
« What is your problem ? » He snarled and clenched his fist, walking away, leaving me in the room.
I could have sworn that I saw him take out his blade after I kissed him. Did I push it that far ? Of course...

-The next day-
As I went to work, I felt this urge to cover myself in a blanket and hide. I was so ashamed.
« Yo. You look like a dead person. »
I giggle at the voice. Silverwolf.
« Perharps, I'd rather be right now. » I sighed and looked at her. She looked energetic today.
« Don't say that. Let's get to work. We stay indoors with Blzde today. »
I get to work with him now ? OUT OF ALL THE MOMENTS ?
« You look like someone abducted you. » She said it on a playful tone and laughed.
« I would have—»
« Preferred that ? »
« Yeah. »
« Cheer up now. » She smile and roll her eyes as she walked away.
I followed her and soon we arrived in a room that looked pretty much like a high-tech zone.
I was always impressed by that kind of place in their HQ. As a galaxy ranger, we had only the bare minimum of technology. I'm very ready to see my payment. Money just cheers me up.

I looked around impressed

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I looked around impressed. Silverwolf closed my mouth.
« Pfft—You're so yourself. » Was that a compliment ? Well I think, some of her colleagues might hide their true personality. I am not aiming anyone.
The feeling of wanting to hide came back when I noticed him sitting down with a laptop on one of the chairs.
« Good morning. » He said it blankly, without looking at us.
« Mornin' » Silverwolf sat down and yawned.
I looked around the room curiously. Mainly to avoid the talking part. That was totally lame but I was in total panick. My heart wasn't having it right now.
« Get to work already. You'll take a look later. » He almost sounded as if he growled at me.
I sat down and took one of the laptops that were in front of us. They had the habits to never tell me what to do. I blushed, why couldn't I bear his mannerisms ?
« Your script. »
« Oh...yeah my script. » I forgot about it again. I felt so ridiculous. It tells you what you have to do. I had to become more independent so that he doesn't make any more remarks.

I yawned. It wasn't out of boredom, I was tired. I think we started to work about an hour ago, the only things we heard was yawning, stretching or the noise of the keyboards.
« Done. » Silverwolf got up and stretched.
Blade looked at her quickly and turned back to his computer.
« We'll have to compare our scripts later. » She winked at me. WHAT MORE ? WHY DID SHE BLINK ?
« Your number. »
I looked at Blade.
« What ? »
He rubbed his eyes annoyed.
« For our script comparison. »
« Ah, alright. » Why was I becoming so red ? I heard Silverwolf giggling behind me. THAT WAS WHY SHE BLINKED.
Wait...Could she have lied ? So that I get his number ? Weird...
After I entered my number in his phone I gave it back to him. Our hands slightly touched.
I flinched instinctively. He looked so done with me, at this point, I became done with myself too.
« I'm not done yet. » I looked at Silverwolf and smiled awkwardly.
« It's alright, being new to this task you'll take more time than us. Blade will help you. I'm off playing ! » She did not...
She walked away, taking a bubble gum in her mouth.
I felt the tense atmosphere again. But the angry one. I didn't dare to look at Blade. I knew he was at his limits.
I went back to work as if nothing happened and tried not to look too tense. My heart was pounding so much in my chest, I was almost having a headache.
« Don't do that. »
« Do what ? » I didn't want to look at him.
« This. » He crouched besides me and pushed my hands away from the laptop with a gesture.
The choo choo gesture.
He smelled good. DONT I START. SERIOUSLY I HAVE TO STOP IT.
« You are not listening. »
I came back to reality. What ? Oh no.
« Stop daydreaming. You are already slow. »
Couldn't he stop being so harsh ? He sounded so proud of himself too.
He looked at me. Ugh. I failed not to look at him. I just got scolded so I couldn't just look away.
« Keep working. »
« Y—Yeah. » I looked at my laptop again and started to work again.
« Are you done ? » IT WAS AT LEAST THE 29474376492th HE ASKED.
« Almost. »
After ten minutes I finally conclude to something correct.
« Let me see. » He took the laptop off me and walked away with it. That was so childish.
« Hey, what if you delete everything on purpose ? »
« I could. »
I get up and run to him.
« Don't ! »
He glanced at me from above. He's tall.
« What you did is greatly mid. »
My jaw dropped. THE AUDACITY ? WITH A STRAIGHT FACE ?
I hold myself back form saying  fuck you. LIKE REALLY.
I started to walk away and was about to leave when he caught my arms and placed them on top of my head with one hand and pushed me against the wall. I didn't get the time to react.
He analyzed me. I felt like his eyes were scanning me from up and down. His face got closer from mine and he was just inches from me. What's with the silence ?
His lips got closer from mine. Was he going to kiss me ?
« You need to be disciplined. » He whispered in my ear with a low voice.
With that he walked away without taking a glance at me. I was bright red I knew it.
I could have folded from that. Was he playing with me now ? What was his intentions ?

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