Interest ~Toto Wolff

Chapter 38 - Race to parenthood

  I was sitting on the balcony of Toto's stylish apartment..well, ours. Toto hated to say that this apartment was his only, even though it was. But it really was great here. The apartment overlooked the glittering lights of the city below.  I always liked the view, but tonight it seemed different.

My pregnancy was starting to drain me. It was no longer possible to hide my belly and not only that. The fatigue, the pain in my legs, the vomiting. I could no longer travel with Toto.  Toto.. he had just returned from a trip,  to watch their final race in Monaco.  I know his job is demanding, with races all over the world, countless meetings and an endless pursuit of perfection on the track.  But now, with a baby on the way, everything felt even more overwhelming. Really. I wanted him to be by my side all the time, but I knew his team relied on him just as much as I did.

  Toto has always been passionate about racing and his dedication to the sport was part of what perhaps drew me to him in the first place.  But as I said as the months went by and my pregnancy became more pronounced, I couldn't help but feel a growing sense of anxiety.

  Toto walked into our apartment, exhaustion showing in the lines on his face.  However, he gave me a genuine smile.  He came closer and wrapped his arms around me, kissing my forehead gently

   "I missed you," he murmured.

  I smiled as I caught his scent, a mix of his favorite cologne and a faint trace of motor oil. Yes, being pregnant is weird!

   "I missed you too.  How was Monaco?'
Toto sighed and leaned against the balcony railing.

   “Intense as always.  Lewis secured the win but it was a tough race.  The competition this season is fierce. You understand, Verstappen"

  We both laughed then I nodded. This sick feeling had been gnawing at me for days and I just felt the need to tell him

  “Toto, I'm worried about how your job will fit in with our growing family.  You're always on the road, and when you're here, you're constantly working. Yes, in the beginning it was good when I could come, but I can't anymore. And when the little one is here, at least until he's 1, we won't be able to come."

  Toto ran a hand through his hair with a thoughtful expression.

"I know Leah. I've thought about it too. We have the best team but I have to find a way to balance work and family. They need me but you know you and the baby are the most important things in my life  "I appreciated his words, but I couldn't shake my worries. But I don't want to stop him from what he loves

"I want to support your career, Toto, but I also need you here with me. You are my mate and the father of our child."  I don't want to go through this pregnancy alone, like I'm a single mother.  I want you to be here for our child.” Toto nodded, staring at the horizon.

  “I promise we'll figure it out.  I will talk to the team about rearranging my schedule and delegating some tasks.  I want to be a good father and friend Leah, and I want to be here for you. I didn't mean to hurt you or make you feel this way."

  At last I felt a slight relief.  Toto's commitment to finding a solution assured me that we could make it work.  We were a team and could overcome any challenge together. It's not our first tho