Creek - Crush

Chapter 29

"Shit.... shit shit shit... what the fuck have I done?" I repeat to myself over and over.

I can't move. I feel dizzy, but this time it's not because of the beer.

I feel disgusted, horrified, guilty, shocked, and dozens of other emotions I can't place.

I've never felt this horrible.

I'm... I'm gonna lose him... I just got him after so long and I'm already going to lose him...

A deep depression hits me like a train. My emotions are all numb. I'm shutting down.

It's over.

I messed it up and now it's over.

No.

I have to try.

I hurry downstairs to find Tweek. He said he would be with Jimmy, and he's usually in the kitchen during crowded parties.

Every step I take feels like needles. My legs feel weak. 

I'm in a room with dozens of people, but it sounds like I'm underwater.

I've had panic attacks before, but it's never been this bad.

I could lose everything I love right now.

He is everything.

I spot Tweek in the kitchen. He is laughing at a joke from Jimmy.

"Tweek!" I grab his shoulders.

"Hey, babe. You good?"

"You are Tweek, right?"

"Pfft- are you drunk?"

"Yes, but that's not what's important. I need to tell you something."

"Okay, go ahead."

"Come outside with me."

I drag him outside.

"Craig? You're scaring me..."

"I kissed Thomas. I kissed him, and I-" I gag, doing my best to keep my stomach in place by covering my mouth, I continue. "I touched him."

"What..."

"I- I thought he was you! Everything was blurry, I was dizzy, and when I saw what I thought was you I..."

His tone grows cold. He doesn't look at me. "Did this just happen?"

"Yes. I came to you as soon as I found out that it wasn't you."

"How far did you go?"

"Not all the way... we just kissed and touched each other for a bit..."

"..." He starts walking back towards the house.

"Wait, can we talk about this?"

"No."

He disappears into the house.

My ears are ringing. 

Oh god... It can't end like this...

"Hey! HEY!" I hear Tolkien yell from inside.

I rush into the house. Everyone is shouting. I hear a strange thumping sound.

"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!"

I make my way through the crowd.

Tweek is on top of Thomas pummeling him into the ground. I never knew he was so strong...

Now isn't the time to think about that.

I run in and pull Tweek off Thomas. Tolkien helps me restrain him while Clyde helps Thomas back up.

"Tweek! Hey!" I try to get him to stop moving around.

"Let me kill him!"

"Tweek! It wasn't his fault!"

"IT WAS!!"

"How? I was the one who-"

"I told him we were together! He came to me asking if you were single and I told him that we were dating! HE KNEW AND HE TOOK YOU ANYWAY!"

"What..?"