my heart can never trust again

chapter 3

April

Tumisho and I are still in a relationship, solid as ever. Or at least, I hope so. Tumisho has been extremely distant lately. I honestly don't know what's going on and I don't want to know.

The other day, we were sitting together and he was texting and as soon as I got close, he switched off his phone and started asking me questions, which caused another argument because does he think I'm some fool?

Anyway, I wake up in the morning and decide to pay him a visit so I wake up and dress up nicely for him. I fix up my hair and put on some light make up. I have on a curly wig which I installed yesterday.

My parents are still not happy about me not going to varsity so they cut me off financially and I have been using my savings, I guess I'll do that until I make a plan.

After getting ready, I quickly run and grab my dad's keys for his second car, the white kia picanto. I run out without saying goodbye, they are totally going to lecture me.

I drive to tashas and order him his favourite meal before heading to his house. I get there and I'm let in by the security at the gate.

I get in and I see a girl wearing his hoodie in the kitchen. She's also making food, must be nice. She's so comfortable, almost like it's her house.

Me: who are you?
???: who are you to ask me that?!
Me: why are you wearing my man's clothes and cooking in his house?
???: this is my man's hoodie, my man's house, my man's kitchen so I'll do what I want!
Me: please take it off.

I say approaching her.

???: make me!
Tumi: what's going on here?

We both look at each other and look back at him.

Tumi: what are you doing here, Mapula?
Me: I came here to see you.
Tumi: what for?!

The girl walks towards me.

Tumi: wait, Yvonne!

Oh so that's her name.

Tumi: please leave.
Me: Tumi?

It comes out as a whisper as I try so hard to not let the tears in my eyes fall out but they betray and do the exact opposite.

Tumi: you're upsetting my girlfriend! LEAVE!

I look at him in utter disbelief. He calls the security at the gate and asks him to escort me out and he grabs and twists my arm before pushing me out.

He finally let's me go when we get to my dads car and I just get in the car and drive out. I drive to my house and cry all the way there.

I get to my house, run to my room and just break down. After I have calmed down, I call Thabi.

Thabi: hey darling.
Me: Thabi...
Thabi: what's wrong, my love?
Me: It's Tumisho, I-

I am cut short by the suuden feeling of the need to vomit, I run to the bathroom and vomit whatever it is out.

Within minutes, Thabi is at my house. She actually came back last night and is at home until tomorrow.

Thabi: baby, what's wrong?

She says as she finds me still on the floor.

Me: I don't know, I've been feeling off lately...
Thabi: when last did you get your period?
Me: Thabi?
Thabi: you never know...
Me: but I'm not...

I stop and my eyes widen. My period! I haven't had my period for a month now. It's also late this month. No! I can't be!

We both run out and go to the local shopping center. We buy a bunch of pregnancy test kits. Two from each brand. We get back at my house and do the tests.

We leave them in the bathroom and go to my room.

Thabi: what are you going to do? what are you going to tell your parents?
Me: I don't know.
Thabi: how are you going to feed that baby?
Me: I have savings, enough to last us a while. I was saving up for an apartment so I guess I'll be staying with my parents a little while longer.

We go back to the bathroom and grab them with our eyes closed. We countdown and then open our eyes to see the results.