I wake up and the first thing I hear is the big sounds come from the machines. Then it hits me, my baby. I call out for my mom and she runs to me, I'm guessing she slept on that couch. My dad also stands my side. My mom's eyes are red and puffy, I know what that means so my tears just fall down like a fountain.
Me: mama, my baby. where's my baby?
Mom: baby...
She stops and starts crying as well. My dad holds my hand.
Me: daddy?
The doctor walks in.
Dr: ma'am, how are you feeling now?
Me: where is my baby?
The doctor looks at my parents and looks back at me.
Dr: I'm so sorry, ma'am. we tried all that we could.
Me: no!
Dr: the baby did not make it.
Me: no!
I scream and cry my lungs out. I have never felt a pain greater than this. My mom holds me and I let it all out. I can't bear this type of pain. I have gone trough enough, this baby was my hope. I refuse to believe that she's gone.
Mom: I'm sorry, nana.
She manages to calm me down. Visiting hours end so they are asked to leave.
I look down at my tummy and run it but I feel nothing. No movement, no joy, no soul. My baby is gone. She has really left me.
After contemplating hard about it, I decide to call Tumisho.
Tumisho: what do you want?
Me: nothing uhm, I actually fell down the stairs and had a miscarriage.
Tumisho: what does that have to do with me? I told you to abort that thing.
Me: how could you be so heartless?
Tumisho: if you had aborted then you wouldn't be in this situation.
Me: tumisho?
Tumisho: also, please stop calling. I have a fiance and want nothing to do with you, just be grateful that thing of yours died on its own. I have better things to do so if you don't mind...
He ends the call and I look at it in shock. This is not the man I fell in love with.
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my heart can never trust again
RomanceLove shouldn't hurt, right? Then why does it hurt and confuse Mapula? Will she ever find a man to love her the way she needs to be loved? Let's find out.
