I wake up the next morning and I hear machines beeping. It all feels familiar.
I open my eyes and ask for water. Bayanda helps me take a sip of water. My baby? I sit up straight.
I look at Bayanda and his eyes say it all. I break down in his arms.
Me: my baby...
I say in between my hushed sobs.
Baya: I'm sorry, baby.
He says holding onto me like his life depends on it. I guess it's hitting him as deep as it is hitting me. Only difference is I have been here before.
5 days later.
I have been back home for a day now and Bayanda seems afraid to even look at me. I am currently sitting in the closet having a silent crying session while going trough everything belonging to my two babies.
Naomi and Lesedi walk in.
Lesedi: oh friend.
She says and they both sit down next to me and they both cuddle me.
Me: I don't know what I have done to deserve this. do I deserve happiness?
Naomi: of course.
Lesedi: how are you though? has anyone reached out to you?
Me: could be better. Thabi has been calling everyday and it's the same with my parents. all that still doesn't take away my pain
Naomi: I'm so sorry, baby.
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my heart can never trust again
RomanceLove shouldn't hurt, right? Then why does it hurt and confuse Mapula? Will she ever find a man to love her the way she needs to be loved? Let's find out.
