my heart can never trust again

chapter 15

As much as I don't want to, I have to go to work today.

11:00

I wake up and get ready for work. My eyes are still sore and red. The swelling has gone down. The swelling in my heart is still there though. My heart feels so heavy.

I request a ride to work and get there at 13:09. I bow my head and greet everyone before going inside. I get inside and find Nkosana in the living room so I greet but I do so while walking out of the room.

I get all my cleaning equipment and start doing what I have to do. I am so tired, I barely even got any sleep last night.

I head outside and clean the cottage outside. Now, I just have to fix up the closet so I head upstairs to his room. I clean it thoroughly, even the mirror. I then neatly organise his wardrobe but my mind moves back to what i felt when I saw the baby.

I feel the pain again. It really hurts and I can't hold it in anymore. I just break down.

Nkosana comes in and I wipe my tears away. He sits down next to me and pulls me in his arms, he lays my head on his chest and just like that, my heart betrays me yet again.