𝐌𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝'𝐬 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 | 𝐂.𝐉𝐇 𝐱 𝐊.𝐘𝐒 ✓

「33」

Jongho wasn't sure what to do.

He knew he needed to apologize, but how? Yeosang blocked him, and he just straight ran away when he saw him. 

Jongho was heartbroken even more when he saw how he looked at him in actual fear and just ran away, and Yeosang gave him a clear sign he didn't want to see him anytime soon, let alone talk to him. 

He knows they should talk it out like adults they are, but Jongho understands why is Yeosang acting like that.

It is Jongho's fault after all and he definitely doesn't deserve anything else. The fact Yeosang even looked at him was too much. 

Jongho sighed as he sat down on sofa and listened to the show on tv playing as San typed on his phone, probably texting Wooyoung about their date or just something random.

At least they are happy and together unlike Jongho and Yeosang.

Jongho was worried for their relationship now, but he has to make it up to him and make Yeosang get back to him.

"What's wrong?" San asked. 

Jongho shook his head after a few seconds of silence. He didn't know where to begin.

"What isn't wrong? Everything is fucked up." Jongho smiled sadly.

San looked him with pity in his eyes, and he didn't know what he wanted to say anymore.

He wasn't sure what was even going on with Yeosang because he keeps acting like everything is normal despite Jongho telling him the truth.

"Jongho, Yeosang looks down all the time. He acts like everything is good and he doesn't even know that everyone now knows what happened because Woo told Hwa and Hongjoong hyung." San said.

Jongho totally expected that from Yeosang. Of course he would act like everything is okay instead of telling the truth. 

"I don't know what to do anymore. He looks like he is scared of me now, and I just want to show him love and apologize for everything I have done but I have no idea how." Jongho said as he felt his throat start to hurt and tears start to fill up in his eyes again. 

He missed Yeosang so badly, and he wanted to pull him close and never let him go. Yeosang was his love, and Jongho isn't sure how will he live without him.

"I get why he is acting like that. No matter how much I love you, Jongho, you deserve it. You deserve to be ignored after what you did and I won't defend you. I think you are also aware of what you did and why I'm telling you this."

San was so damn right. He was right with every word he said, and Jongho won't deny it. 

He sniffled as a tear rolled down his cheek, nodding his head and trying to find words to say something. Jongho would feel awkward crying in front of someone, but he didn't care anymore. 

San was his brother, and he knows how much he is hurting now.

Jongho cried and cried in silence before San suddenly sighed and shifted, and before Jongho knew, San's arms were wrapped around him. 

"Hey, calm down man. You know that you won't really achieve anything if you keep crying. You should stay strong for Yeosang and for yourself too. You miss him so much and you should apologize and explain everything to him so you can at least be friends." 

Jongho didn't like that. He didn't want to be friends with Yeosang, no way. He loved that man with his whole heart and he won't survive being a friend.

Jongho didn't know what to say, so he just hugged his brother back and cried even harder.