The Deep Desires ( KTH x Y/N)

🥀Overthinking

Author's pov
Currently in the mall, Y/N is staring at herself in the mirror of the changing room while having a bad headache.
The bustling noise of the store has no effect on her as she lifelessly looks at her clothes. The long beige pants made her look visibly taller than usual, and the black shrug hugged her body. She feels weird.

Y/n's Pov

"Will he like it? Isn't this his style?" I keep debating with myself while looking at the outfit that I am wearing, which is totally different from my usual style.
"But then what if he hates my tattoo too", A small pout forms on my lips as I start feeling down.
"Should I just.. change to a skirt? ugh ".
While I was overthinking, Miss Bella barged into my changing room and dumped another set of clothes on me.
"Y/N CHANGE FAST, WILL YOU?", She gets impatient while scolding me.
"I think I'll... uh, wear this?" I ask her cautiously before she steps back and takes a look at me from top to bottom.

Y/N is wearing

Seeing my clothes, she frowned.
"Are you trying to impress him by trying out his style?" she asks me while staring at me, which clearly shows she's judging my choices already. "Yea???" I reply again, being confused, hearing which she face-palms.
"I mean, it's fine that you want to impress him, but Y/N, this isn't you, okay?" She continues while I look down at the floor.
"Wear what you feel comfortable in, he'll like you in everything if he has to. You know that, right?" She asks me, and I nod slowly in response, taking the outfit she got me.
I start changing while asking her,
"Bella, what would you do if you got to meet Kook? Would you dress up for him or wear whatever you want to?", I ask her out of curiosity, and she replies to me with a straight face, "You know we have the same preferences, right?".
Her reply made me pout even more. Deep inside, I was jealous.

I have always been the girl who loves to dress in short, revealing clothes, embracing my body and being comfortable have always been my number one priorities.
But then there's Taehyung, who loved comfortable baggy style.
That one fear that always bothered me, is
What to wear when I first see him, is finally happening in real life, and I am torn between my choices.

"Y/N, YOU LOOK FABULOUS!" she exclaimed happily as I stood facing her, showing my dress.

Y/n wearing

"I mean, yes, I do love this so much, bu-", my words were cut short by the overly hyped Bella. "NO BUTS, WE GETTING THIS!" she exclaimed again and pulled me out of the changing room.

After buying the dress, we shopped for a few accessories and snacks and went back to my home.

Y/N's room

"Y/N. It's tomorrow, huh?" she said while smirking softly, and I got annoyed for the hundredth time now.
"YAH OKAY, IF YOU SPEAK ABOUT IT ONE MORE TIME, I'LL.." I got pissed again as she interrupted me. "You will?" She smirked again, and I ended up whining and smacking her. "DON'T TEASE ME, PLEASE," I said, begging her and pouting cutely, mumbling, "I am already nervous... What if he doesn't like me?..", hearing me Bella smacked my head and said, "Then he doesn't. At least you will get a chance to meet him. B*tch, be happy about it and think about what you will do tomorrow.", She laid on my lap, got her phone, and started watching reels.
while I was left thinking about the date.

timeskip to night time( almost 2:30 am)

The rest of the evening, I was unusually calm. I barely ate properly, nor did I touch my copies. My table was a hot mess as I left all the photocards and merches in there, because all I did was take one merch after another and stared at them while thinking about the raffle.

The raffle. Yes, that thing I never had my hopes on.
I am rather an optimistic person, but winning a raffle that too from BTS and with Taehyung was really close to impossible.

About 2 weeks ago, an announcement was posted in BTS Weverse about a raffle ticket.
Being confused about what kind of new event they are holding, I curiously clicked on it, and to my surprise, it was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity raffle for a one-day exclusive date with Taehyung. No managers, no bodyguards-just Taehyung and the lucky army.
The instructions were quite clear; to enter the raffle, just put your name, phone number, and email, seeing which I entered the raffle without a second doubt.

Slowly, as the day passed, the thoughts started sinking in.
"You are lucky, but not lucky enough to see him, nah".
I started caring less and less about the results.
Until Bella told me I actually won.

Last night I ended up drinking more than usual, and now it's almost 3 a.m. and I am still wide awake. I wanted to get drunk but the hangover would make me a mess.

I knew if I kept going on like this, Taehyung would just witness a ghost tomorrow.
So I applied some lavender oil to my temples, listened to some lofi music, and drifted off to sleep somehow.

next day

"Baby, eat slowly; you aren't going to miss the train." Mom patted me softly while I was busy stuffing my mouth in a hurry.
"I want to arrive there early so I can get used to the surroundings; look for the washroom, etc., you know?"
I replied, which came out as a mumble as I had a mouthful of food.
Seeing me, mom shook her head and sat down to eat her food.

A few minutes later, Bella rushed in and checked me out carefully. "Hmm, hair perfect, face perfect, dress perfect, smile gone? Huh?? Yah, Kim Y/N smile.." Hearing her, I smiled awkwardly, and a smack landed on my head as usual.
"Come on, it's time to leave. Let me drop you off; I brought my bike!"

Without wasting a minute, we left together.



"Kim Y/N? You are prettier than I expected" he smiled softly, making me flustered in an instant.

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Author's Note

Hello! I tried to update this chapter as fast as possible so I can get Y/N to meet Tae soon ( which I know you all are waiting for patiently as well ).
Since the chapter was getting longer O decided to get Tae in next part itself.

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