„Hey, little bird. Guess who's back in town! Wanna
come over and help me unpack? - Sam"
Sam had send this text about an hour ago at that point. I didn't reply. Back in the days we used to share our luggage. So after every mission we used to unpack our stuff and do our laundry together – usually ending in a fight with us throwing dirty clothes at each other and creating more chaos than actually unpacking anything.
These past days I wasn't very good at keeping up with my own emotions. It was all too much. When Sam sent his text I was still fed up with Tonys stupid idea of the party. I didn't want to see Sam in that mood. I knew the smallest thing would send me off the edge again. And I didn't want to let my anger out on him. I was a bomb waiting to go off.
I didn't want to be that person.
I hated what I had become.
But I just couldn't control it.
Annoyed at myself I finally got up from my bed, pulled my hair back into a bun and put a Hoodie on to make my way towards his room. Hiding away was so much easier than to wander through those halls but it didn't help me at all. I knew that. In my mind I knew that.
When I arrived at Sams room, the door was left open as he was talking to someone else. It was a male voice. I couldn't help myself but to eavesdrop when I realized that it was Barnes voice. He probably went to Sam to sniff about what a stupid bitch I was and how much he hated me.
I didn't understand what Barnes had said when he finished his sentence. His voice was calm. Sams answer surprised me.
„Didn't expect this to be coming from you", Sam sounded worried.
„Fury send us a file about her arrest. Getting punched in the face after almost being shot in less than 24 hours – didn't surprise me, to be honest. You're both pretty stubborn."
Sam probably already knew I would be putting up one hell of a fight with Barnes the moment Steve called to let him know that I was back.
„What did you say about her again?"
„The bitch got what she deserves", Barnes admitted slightly giggling.
Stupid asshole.
Sam was amused:
„Yeah. I laughed out loud at that sentence. I can just imagine you sitting there all grumpy with your arms crossed and putting out stupid comments like that."I got overwhelmed. How could he stand there cracking jokes with this idiot about that? Barnes laughed at my arrest, insulted me in every stupid comment of his at yet nobody distanced themselves from him. How could they all be so blind and ignorant? I couldn't be the only one to see how problematic his whole behavior was.
Yet there I stood, hurt and eavesdropping yet another conversation.
„I really don't know what point Fury is trying to prove by keeping her here but I do know: This won't end well", Barnes replied after a while.
His response caught me off guard.
„Hold on. You are genuinely worried, aren't you?" Sams voice was full of concerns.
Barnes didn't answer right away, so Sam asked:
„What the hell happened?"
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i forgive you (y/ns pov)
FanfictionAfter leaving the avengers seven months ago, y/n is forced to reunite with the team to work with none other than Bucky Barnes - the one person she hates the most. During her time back she has to face many untold truths and overwhelming emotions. A...