She's GONE - A Fifty Shades Fanfiction

~Christian - Chapter 3~

As I made my way into my office the next morning, I felt the buzz on my phone go off, telling me of an email. I pulled it out of my pocket and glanced it over. Sarah Reynolds? Who the fuck was that?

I will look at it later. I went right to my chair, pulled it out, and sat down, reflecting on my failed scene with my ex sub. What made me decide go back into the lifestyle? It was definitely a bad idea. Ana was there to tell me it wasn't right, but I didn't need to tell her it wasn't right. I was having flashbacks of Ana on the bed the first time we explored the first scene.

I knew deep down that it wasn't going to work, that I no longer needed it, but I knew what I needed was not something that I was willing to let go. If I let go, I lose her, I lose him. I can't fucking do that. I can never do that.

Andrea knocked and stepped in distracting me. "Mr. Grey..."

"Your 10 o'clock will be here shortly. Shall I bring you some coffee or tea?"

"Coffee please."

As Andrea slipped out of my office and I decided to check that email again. I brought it up on my laptop. Sarah Reynolds, who the hell are you? I clicked to open the email.

'Dear Mr. Grey,

Attached is a manuscript and a picture of a very talented young author named Sarah Reynolds that I thought you'd be interested in reading. I have also forwarded it off to Grey Publishing as well.

Thank you very much,

-ASG-'

ASG? Who was ASG? Perhaps...No! It couldn't be. My eyebrow shot up with intrigue though. It definitely got my attention.

I was about the click to open the manuscript when I felt compelled to open the picture instead. When I did, Sarah took my breath away. She was beautiful in a plain way. Like my Ana had been.

My attention was back on Sarah. I could not stop staring at her.

Whoever took the picture, she was definitely in love with. But what happened? Did they get together? Get married? Have kids? Why was I suddenly drawn to her? Questions I suddenly needed answers too. Why?

But in that moment, I was suddenly certain she was single, but I wanted to know more. No! I closed my eyes. No! My pain from losing Ana surfaced. No, I couldn't move on. I couldn't. I was loose her for good.

Open your fucking eyes Grey! You will never loose Ana. She will always be with you. Mom told you that several times. Maybe it is about time you listen to her.

Slowly I opened my eyes and Sarah was staring back at me like she was looking into my dark soul. Ana had always been able to do. It was unnerving, but I couldn't look away. Sarah was speaking to me. What was she saying?

Why was this girl able to reach deep inside me and invoke all these feelings and reminders of Ana? It was confusing as hell. How could Sarah totally disarm me just from a picture?

"Mr. Grey..." Andrea popped into my office again and brought me my coffee. She set it down in front of me. "Anything else I can get for you before Mr. Johnson arrives?"

"Actually yes, see if you can get some information on Sarah Reynolds from GP. She turned in some manuscripts. I'd like to see them for myself." I tore my gaze away from Sarah and onto Andrea. "See if you can reschedule my appointment as well."

"I will get on it." Andrea smiled at me and left my office.

Clicking on the manuscript, I waited for the word program to open up, and as soon as it had, I had begun to read the story. Lost Love was written across the first page along with her name as well below it.

I continued reading, impressed with the story. It was a girl meets boy romance. Typical story, but a few chapters in, the girl had lost the boy in a freak accident and it destroyed her. The rest of the story was about her journey to rediscover herself and finding love again. Was this a type autobiography?

It was so good; I had to read more of it. I had to meet her. There were so many things that we both could relate to. There were so many things that I wanted to ask her.

I reached for my phone, dialed a number. "Barney, find me all you can on Sarah Reynolds. I wanted it immediately. Yeah, fine." I set the phone back into the cradle waiting.