She's GONE - A Fifty Shades Fanfiction

~Chapter 5 - Christian~

Fuck! That was way too intense! I should just go, leave here, never look back, but for the life of me, I don't want to leave here just yet. There was just something about Sarah that I had to know more about and that connection.

What did it feel like exactly? I was a moth to her flame or as Ana would say, I was Icarus flying too close to the sun. Will I get burned if I get to close to Sarah? If Elena had her way, I would be playing the field again and...I think I'm done. Yes, I am done. The whole scene is hollow; there's no feeling. I can't bring myself do it again, unless I was in a loving, committed relationship like I had with Ana? But the question was, could I bring Sarah into the darkness with me? Could I bring into my world, into my darkness?

Would she accept me as I was, warts and all? Would she be able to chase away the nightmares? Without my dream catcher, my dreams have a life of their own. Ana helped me to overcome my dreams from my childhood, but with the deaths of Ana and Teddy, they weigh heavily on my mind ever day. Every dream I have, I am always trying to save them. No matter what I do to try to save them, they always die. It kills me each and every time. I don't know how much longer I can deal with it all.

What does that mean with Sarah? Does it mean more? More...The word was rolling around in my head. More meant possibilities. Was I ready for that? Was I ready?

My phone was vibrating in my pocket; the answer to that question was going to have to wait till later. Reaching into my pocket, I pulled it, and read the display. It read Elena. Shit, I didn't want to speak with her. I sent her call to voice mail, deciding to deal with it later.

As I took a deep breath, I placed the book I was holding on the shelf, and decided it was now or never. I found myself putting one foot in front of the other and I saw that I was in front of the store a moment later. Sarah was behind the counter working on something. Inventory maybe? There were several books on the counter next to her. I kept my eyes on her; she was breathtaking with the glow surrounding her in a halo. Her hair was shinny and glossy. It hung at her side like a curtain, fanning her pretty face.

I don't know how long I stood there, it must have been awhile. Sarah glanced up at me and smiled a warm, genuine, surprising smile. She wasn't merely pretty, she was beautiful.

"Hi..." Her voice was soft and gentle.

I swallowed. "Hi!" It was all I could say at the moment. I moved closer.

Sarah stared at me for a moment. "Was?" She was quiet a moment. "Is there anything I can help you?"

I matched her warm, genuine, and charming smile with one of my own. I placed my hands on the counter in front of me, watching her closely. Her breathing had changed, her pupils were dilated, and she was beginning to fidget with her hands much like Ana used to do when she was shy about something she wanted to say or do.

"Umm..." What the hell do I say? Do I just ask her out? Yes...just fucking do it. "Would you like to go for some coffee?"

Fuck! Sarah was biting her lip. That was definitely unexpected and very hot. My dick was pressing painfully in my pants. I shifted my stance to relieve some of the pressure but it did not help.

After just a moment, I knew I definitely wanted her.

I could see Sarah was hesitating. She was quiet. Come on, don't think about it. Just say yes. I know you want to. I could see it in your eyes. I know you're scared. I am scared too. If neither one of us doesn't make a move, we will never know what our connection was really about.

Oh no, Sarah was getting herself under control, she was on the verge of saying no. Damn! Did I play my cards to soon? Maybe I'd come onto strong...No, don't fucking guess yourself.

"Where are my manners...?" I held out my hand to hers and tentatively she placed hers in mine. As I wrap my hands around her delicate little hand, I shook it in greeting, but as I had done so, an electrical energy passed between us.

It was just so intense for our first meeting, it scared me, and I wanted to step back, but something kept me rooted in place. I couldn't help but watch her reaction to our connection building between us, but she just quickly pulled away, surprise written over her pretty face.

If I had to admit it, I was surprised as well. I felt that with Ana, I never thought that I would feel that again.

Placing my hand back at my side, I gave her my most charming smile, one that would surely make her relax. "I should probably introduce myself. I'm Christian Grey."

It took her a moment to register my name, but when she realized who I was, she smiled the most breath-taking smile. Her eyes shined brightly. She was happy. I wanted to see that more. "Grey Publishing? Are you here about my book?"

Shit! I had not anticipated that we'd be discussing her book now, after I just asked her out. How to get this conversation back on course...?