She's GONE - A Fifty Shades Fanfiction

~ Epilogue - Christian ~

When Ana was pregnant that was wonderful, but also scary. I didn't think I was ready to be a father nor was I ready to love a whole other little person. Ana was my whole world. How were we going to be parents of this little baby, when we were still getting to know each other? Someone told me that I was going to be a good father. I realized then that every parent was scared of the big change a baby would be, but I wasn't going to abandon my wife when she needed me most. But sadly, that wasn't mean to be. Ana and Teddy were taken away from me far too early.

Ana was never far away even in my darkest hours. She was right with me and anticipated the path I had set myself on. Her unfinished business was finding me happiness. Ana set out to find me someone else to love and to be happy with. That didn't mean that I had to forget my Ana. She was always there with me and in my heart. She was my first love, my soulmate, but she believed that in tragic circumstances like death, everyone had a backup soulmate. That is where Sarah had come in and charmed me. I fell for her right away. I couldn't imagine my life without her.

We started off far too quickly. Probably too quickly. We put the brakes on our relationship and just stayed engaged. Neither of us were truly ready to get married and we waited a year and half to make our relationship official. I think more than anything, I didn't want her to run away from me. I know I can be difficult at times. Hell, all the time, and I was afraid. I couldn't lose her so I just blurted out my proposal.

We didn't exactly wait a year and half, we got married a few weeks ago. Sarah was pregnant but she was several days past her due date. To say I am a nervous wreck is an understatement but I was ready.

As I ponder all this, I turned off the main road to the cemetery and follow the windy road to the back. I pulled off the road and I cut the engine. Opening the door, I stepped out, and looked around. It was quiet as a mouse. The trees swayed to the breeze. I reached into the car, pulling out my leather jacket, and I slipped it on.

With a deep breath, I shut the door to my R8, and let it out at the same time. I made my way over to Ana and Teddy's grave. It was nestled in between some large, overhanging trees and roses. There was just one marble headstone intricately designed with Angels and teddy bears. Their pictures adorned above their names. A white marble bench in front of it.

Running my hands through my hair as I sat down. I just stared at the headstone, unsure of what to say. Suddenly, Ana's form flickers in before me, sitting atop the headstone, smiling her beautiful smile at me, and looking at me with nothing but love. How I fucking miss that.

"Ana..." I breathed surprised. "You're here."

"Christian...." I thought I saw a single tear roll down her pretty face, but she kept smiling at me. "You better hurry."

"Hurry?"

"Yeah...Sarah's gonna need you."

Just my cellphone rang and I reached into my jacket to pull it out. It was Sarah. I quickly answered it.

"Hello!"

"It's time."

"It's time?" Oh shit. I stood up, nerves running through me. "It's time! FUCK!" When I looked back at the headstone, Ana was gone. "Thank you!" I looked up toward the heavens. "Thank you for everything."

"What?" Sarah said strained. "Christian. Dammit. I need you."

"On my way baby." I ended the call and hurried to the car, opening the door, and sliding in.

When I started the car, I turned back towards the grave, smiled, and I drove off.

The End