Falling in love~ (Stolitz)-(Smut, fluff, & maybe angst)

~Confessions~

A/N Any tips on how to kms? NO?! Wow. Enjoy ig..-

Blitz sat back in Stolas' plush bed with his arms behind his head and a satisfied grin. Stolas laid across his lap on his stomach, legs up as he moaned his name yet again.

"Ohh, Blitzy, you were absolutely astounding."

Blitz smirked and smacked his ass in response, making one leg lift higher than the other. Stolas chuckled as he turned over and stared up at him.

"I'll have to come to your rescue more often."

"You want me to start getting more reckless?" Blitz joked. "I can be more reckless."

"Let's not go quite that far."

Stolas reached up and cupped his face, delicate and tender. His eyes became soft and it made Blitz's cheeks warm.

"I do worry about you, Blitzy."

"I told you, it's not gonna happen again, okay?"

"You're very precious to me, you know?"

Blitz scoffed.

"I'm sure you could find someone else to fuck you as good as I do. ...Eventually."

Stolas released his face and sat up, turning his back to him. He sagged a bit, but before Blitz could consider how to react, he'd turned back to him. His eyes were a bit brighter as he leaned in suddenly, face mere inches from his own.

"You are the only man I allow to fuck me. You are irreplaceable. If you were disposable to me, would I have come full force into the human world to save you? Your absolute refusal to acknowledge what you mean to me is beginning to border on the offensive. You certainly cannot be so oblivious that you've failed to see it."

Blitz blinked, heart pounding, leaning back from Stolas' forceful gaze. Sheer panic flooded his system. After seeing a small taste of just how powerful Stolas was, such an intense reaction scared him a bit. But more than that, Stolas was right. Blitz didn't want to hear this. He didn't want to acknowledge it.

"I...I don't know. I'm pretty dumb," he muttered weakly.

Stolas made a little exhalation of annoyance at the response and turned from him again. He waved a hand dismissively.

"Leave me."

Blitz's immediate response was to take the escape hatch Stolas opened for him. But he couldn't move. He kept hearing that ridiculous voice from his bad trip. Are you afraid to love people, Blitzy? Fuck. He crawled towards Stolas, placing his hands on his hunched shoulders before slipping them around to hug him. Stolas seemed receptive to the touch, so Blitz pressed himself close against his back.

"Yeah, okay, I'm not that dumb. I know. But shit like this is hard for me."

Stolas' hand came up to grasp one of his, turning his head enough to see Blitz out of the corner of his eye. He laid his head against his shoulder, hiding his face.

"Do you think you're the only one with fears and doubts? Your presence in my life is not without its disadvantages. My family, my reputation, are all on the line. But I cannot lie to myself, Blitz. I feel too strongly for you."

"If I'm such a pain in the ass, you should just drop me," Blitz stated, voice cold though his arms were still so warm.

"Never."

He said it so simply. Blitz sat back, arms slipping away. Stolas held himself regally, staring ahead, sparing Blitz from his gaze. He listened to Stolas, eyes searching the bed sheets as he took in his words.

"This relationship never need be more than a mutually beneficial exchange. I'm not asking for miracles, Blitzy. I'm only asking for moments. Moments when feeling you move within me lights a fire in my heart that brings me to life. Moments in which I may feel free from my station, from the shackles of my duties, from society and its rules. Rules that tell me I can't have you when you are all I have ever wanted for myself."

He turned to look him in the eye once more and Blitz felt his heart in his throat.

"I don't need you to love me, Blitz. But I need you to understand that I love you."

"Fuck me," Blitz whispered. "You said it."

"And it cannot be unsaid." Stolas slunk over Blitz as he stared in shock. "I've taken a great risk being this upfront. You have my heart in your hands, Blitzy. Break it if you wish." He cupped his face in his hands again. "Just keep lighting this fire inside me. That is all I ask of you."

Blitz's mind had gone blank, but Stolas wasn't giving him the chance to answer anyway. He pulled him in for a deep, passionate kiss. Blitz went on autopilot, hands grabbing at his waist, pulling him down for another round. Anything to keep from thinking.