Pretending | Max Verstappen

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Zoe

flashback

"Lila Loveable room 12, now!" Huck shouted and I panicked, again.

Ricky looked at me and gestured that I should go. I started shivering but tried to not show it as I stood up from the bar chair. My short dress nearly covered my ass as I stumbled the stairs up. This was my third client today and it wasn't even afternoon.

I was afraid, afraid from Ricky who had showed in the past what he was capable of. I had already tried to escape, so so many times but he always had found me and dragged me back, like I belonged to him.

After the death of my parents I grew up at different families and they never accepted me so I tried to look more beautiful and chic because I though it would change anything, but it didn't. I only get to meet Ricky and I really thought he liked me but after all he liked my look.

Through him I got into this business but not voluntarily, I needed money and at the beginning it was just serving drinks. After a time it got more and more into the direction and I had to dance and do more stuff.

I became a whore and I hated it. I never had wanted to end up in that kind of position but I didn't know who to escape, he and his friends were too strong and too many. I had no friends or family to ask for help it was just me.

Every night I was laying in my bed, crying over and over again because I was so afraid of the next day. In these whole two years I had sucked more dicks than countable and I wasn't proud of that, I was ashamed. I always asked myself what sex would be with a man I love, I never had that in my life and probably never would.

With shaking hands I oped the door to "my" room, number 12 and a old man was already laying on the bed, with his trousers at his ankles.

"Suck my dick." he ordered me and I felt my tears coming up but I tried to suppress them. 

Ricky would kill me if I would ruin the man's adventure.

"As you wish sir." was all I said as I stepped closer to him before kneeling down.

Before I was able to start a loud explosion went through the whole building and I could hear shouting and bullet shots firing. It all went black.

today

At that night the police had stormed in and blew the whole place off. Some other girls and I got rescued that night and I get the chance to take a recovery program as I also got into contact with drugs and other substances during that time.

I had learned to find back to me as I always had been just a robot all these years, doing what I was told to. However I never dressed like that again, nice and trying to look hot, until I had met him, Max.

He changed something in my mindset and being with him let me felt secure and valued, at least over the last months. Even kissing him was fine for me and I really like it, as I had never kissed a client on the lips.

Therefore I was lucky that sex had never been a topic during our time because that was something I sure would have problems with. I wasn't even sure if I would ever be able to have sex with someone again, if my mind would let me.

But now it wasn't something I had to think about because the whole would knew I had been a whore and so probably nobody ever wanted to speak to me again, I was so ashamed. I had directly blocked Max on my flight back, same with Lando and Carlos because I couldn't face their reactions.

Christian was the only number I had unblocked now because I still needed to quit my job there, if he hadn't already done that. With that thought I was even more surprised as there was a knock on my front door, a couple of days before the summer break would end.