My Life

Chapter 5: 8th Grade

Okay. Let me just start from the beginning, because the story will make a lot more sense that way. It was the first day of school, and I had no idea what I would do without Lei or TN. TN wasn't my classmate, and I wasn't exactly friends with anyone else... not yet anyways. Over the next few months, I made friends with this amazing group of people: J, Mika, Gabe, AC, and L. Umm... B, who I had a major crush on in seventh grade, wasn't my classmate, but he would wait for me during lunchtime, and we would talk on and on about any random topic, and he would always make me laugh. On October 4th, 2014, he asked me out at one of our school's games. That lasted for about four months. I broke up with him through a note. Can you imagine how awkward it was to be in a play together? Well, it wasn't too bad. Him, J, Mika, TN, and I were in the play together. It was pretty fun. Although, it got pretty awkward at times too. Let's just say that it was no fairytale. As rehersals started, I got really close to Gabe. He seemed to always be there, if that makes any sense. I just knew that I couldn't do anything about it, because he was taken by... this girl. I don't know if she's a friend or not, and I knew that another girl... Let's call her TR. She liked him already, and it was pretty damn obvious too. She would pretty much cling to his side, and I didn't want to get in the middle of that. Well, J--one of my closest friends now.... He told me that I should go for it. And these were his exact words, "Don't wait too long, or you'll lose him. Trust me... I know. If you let others go first, you'll end up being hurt in the end." I didn't know what he meant... until this happened: Gabe asked me on March 23, 2015... I said yes, and he broke up with that other girl and was clear about TR. He thought of her as a friend. And I get that, so I said yes...... we told our friends... I told Mika, TN, and Lei. He told J and AC.... Then shit went down, and I wish it went differently. J... He was pretty fucking pissed off that Gabe told me that he... liked me. He explained later that he was planning on telling me sooner, but I started liking Gabe. J and I had this huge arguement over a fucking messanger! It lasted for a while. We didn't talk for days, and everyone was starting to notice. The play's rehersals went by so slowly, and when it was our turn to do a scene, I could feel how pissed he was. I couldn't handle it anymore... I told him that I saw him as a best friend.... We patched that up, but at times he would look at me with these sad eyes and I just had to brush it off. Everything went back to normal.... Jk! Everything turned to shit! Gabe would constantly get jealous... and that would piss of J and everyone else... It pissed me off too. I don't get it! His friends are almost all girls, but I trust him and don't get pissed off like he does. Sometimes, I just wanted to..... Sorry. I got carried away for a second. Where was I? Oj yeah. J and Gabe. They were best friends, and now they talk anymore, because of... me... I would be lying if I told you that I didn't think about ending things with Gabe... Well, for a while they played along as if nothing changed. We went to the movies and everything seemed fine.... until I got a message from J. He said that it killed him to see us together and that it's like Gabe was teasing him whenever he would hug me... That did it. I guess it hurt me to see him like that, so that was the last time J ever saw Gabe again. And on graduation day, they didn't share a word with each other, and I still feel like shit for doing that. Like I said, "I wish it would've been different." The thought started to make me a different person. I was quieter, more distant, and anisocial. People started to realize it. The feeling made me cry myself to sleep, feel like brealing things out of rage, and it caused me to act differently. I'll explain all of that later. Sorry about all the drama! But that's what happened. I warned you.