the realtor said i can move in at the end of the month, so i am going to go home so i can start moving things in
"bye connie" i say going in for a kiss, but i can't help myself but cringe "i guess that nickname never stuck" i laugh pecking his cheek, we both quickly stop laughing as we gaze into each others eyes. "i'm going to miss you so damn much," i say starting to choke up "but next time i see you it will be when i'm moving in downstairs, so i can't wait" i say trying to find some sense of optimism.
eventually i'm able to board the plane, with a short plane ride home. i am greeted by many familiar faces at the airport, family and friends awaiting my arrival.
"why are you guys all here?" i say hugging them all one by one.
"why not?" chris says giving me a hug. he's not a huge hug guy so a hug from him means a lot.
"because, i was only gone for a couple of days!" my dad grabs my bags as we start to head home.
"yeah but you're moving to chicago soon, we want to spend as much time with you now that we possibly can" my mom says giving me a little squeeze.
"you guys are always welcome to come visit, there's a spare bedroom at my place." i say to my family and cass.
"i just don't get why you have to move to chicago, why not-" she takes a second to think of a closer place "a place like Brandon, only 2 and a half hour drive?" she asks, genuinely.
"because connor's not there" i reason
"yeah but i'm here" she says, tears brimming her eyes
"i know but connor is my future, i mean i love you so freaking much cass, but it's different with connor." i say back, trying to help her understand my point of view.
"so connor's more important than me?" she says out of the blue, catching everyone's attention.
"wait- are you actually mad i'm moving to chicago to go be with my boyfriend?" i say, trying to understand what she's trying to say.
"well yeah, you were my first friend and the second you get a boyfriend you drop everything and everyone in a heartbeat for him. you guys most likely won't even last because he's a hockey boy and only wants you for your body and he doesn't actually love you the way you think he does" she starts rambling on, getting more mad than necessary.
i physically stop in my tracks in the middle of the airport, jaw on the floor, eyes glassing over. "then why the hell are you here? why did you bother coming if all you want to do is yell at me?" i start raising my voice at her, getting more upset.
my mom comes up to me, and she whispers "we'll leave you two to discuss this, we'll be in the vehicle." i nod as she walks away.
"wow even your family doesn't want to be with you right now" cass says, starting to get feisty.
"i knew i shouldn't have trusted you again. you screwed me over the first time and thought when you came back i would drop everything to be with you again, but that's not true! you think everyone loves you so damn much but, newsflash! not everyone wants to be friends with someone who's life goal is to belittle them." i say, tears starting to fully fall down my face.
"is that really how you feel?" she says to me, straight faced, making her hard to read.
"does it look like i'm joking." i say back to her, arms crossed giving her the same look. "you know what, fuck this. get a new ride home, we're not driving you." i say starting to walk away from her, my vision now being super blurry from all the tears. from the corner of my eyes i see her walk in the other direction, calling someone. hopefully she knows this time she's not welcome back.
i eventually find my parents standing outside the airport doors, all approaching me with hugs again at the sight of my crying like that. "i don't want to talk about it" i say before anyone can say anything. they all nod along and walk me to the car, putting all my stuff in the trunk
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bedard <3
how was the flight?
izzy
it was ok
me and cass broke up again tho
i told her next time she's not welcome back
bedard <3
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