One kiss, just one you begged, just one kiss - I promise, you said, it should have been just one, and now I'm the one begging, if I had known the last time would be the last time I would have stayed just a little longer, I would have savored every second in the dark, inside your arms. I would have kissed you untill I could no longer breathe if I knew it would be the last kiss, the last time I got to stare into those eyes, now I'm screaming inside just look at me, look at me the way you did before, but I can't say this to your face I'm a coward in the end and the silence is so deafening, I don't want to lose you as a friend, if i knew the last time would be the last time i would have savored every moment,
I would have held on a little tighter while I could, wrote down every word you said so I could never forget, I would have memorized every star in the sky so I could look at the constellations and always find my way back,
still you are imprinted on my body like a scar I cannot seem to heal from, when all is said and done, just one, it was supposed to be just one,
And I can't tell one way or the other,
how you really feel,
How do I put my faith in another,
If I don't know what's real?
I can't tell you the truth because what if it breaks me?
Shattered pieces too small to catch, but big enough to slice me to the bone,
What if you take me, and regret me and hate me? I need to know that I am home,
Your arms make me ache for things I didn't know I needed and I find myself tripping and reeling, feeling way too much for someone I shouldn't,
So please, please tell me that I'm wrong to want you,
Tell me that I can't need you, can't breathe without the air you breathe, why am I suffacated in this place I call my own, this place should be home, but without you it's just cold, and I can't tell you anything, if I don't know your mind,
But I swear I need you to see inside, see the colors that swirl in the aftermath of everything you are, there is beauty in this - the sweetest pain, I am lost in the taste of everything that never was, of everything that could be, flavors that leave me entangled in the waves of all that I wish if you could only see, would you run? Screaming in the other direction straight back to that place to undo the life you breathed into me, you brought me to my knees and I think that you have defeated me this time, left me hollow in the aftershocks, and I can still feel you there, hands tight and burning on my skin, branded by your lips in ways I could never fathom awakening something dark within,
I can't make false promises to you, or sacrifice myself this time, if I break upon your alter can you promise to be quick, sever the veins that pump lyrical lies, through my soul, through my heart, forever in the chains of what I can and cannot be, expectations break my reality and I am humbled to my core,
And you should know, it was my greatest gift to know you, it was enchanting to meet you, to to see you, to breathe you, and I will never be the same, I will always wander helplessly back to this time in my mind, back to you inside, how do I throw it all away... selfish of me to assume that I could, selfish to think you would want me too, but I would use my last breath to tell you the truth, as long as I get to look into those eyes one last time.
