Days pass by, they turn into weeks, they turn into months, I'm trying so hard to just get through, but I find myself lost in the thoughts of you, and this ache resides inside where I realize, I cannot remember the way you taste on my lips anymore, I cannot remember how your hand felt in mine, the warmth of your arms around me, or the brightness of your smile, I don't remember the way your words lit up my soul, or how my heart would pound when you'd say my name,
I don't remember how your whispered "I love you" felt as it brushed past my ears, or how it felt as we talked about life, and thoughts, and fears,
but I remember that you are gone, your gone and you aren't coming back, but you could.
I remember that you could say "hello" as if I ever even crossed your mind, you could call or you could text if you really wanted to know that I am dying inside, I remember that you know where I live and if it was all a simple misunderstanding, if your phone was just broken or if you lost my number, you could just knock, but you won't.
I remember that you clearly never lied when you told me it was all for fun, but you lied when told me to always be yours, when you said maybe we could run, did you mean it even a little?
Was it wishful thinking, or just a game to pass the time, was I the latest toy you just had to have, before you broke it for the next big thing?
Or maybe you just needed a way to cope, was I just an accident that turned into a summer fling?
Either way, you've made it clear I'm not what you miss at all, but I don't remember how to be who I was before the fall, I don't remember when I lost all sense of self, drowning in your eyes, the way the stars looked so brilliant, when you were around those nights,
And I don't remember, what it feels like to not love you, but I remember, everyday, that you do.
