It's a question I asked often as a child,
A father?
Was that something I was supposed to have?
I found myself jealous of the other kids,
wondering exactly what I did wrong,
What could I have done? To make you leave while I was still so young.
Too young to see the rift in my family.
I could not help but blame myself, when you were never there for me.
Did you not realize that I needed you?
You were supposed to be there for me..you were supposed to protect me...
There are cruel things in this world that I would never have known,
If you had only decided to be a man, if you had only stayed..
Too late to change the past I suppose, but I wonder what we could have been..
Could we have been happy? Been a family? Could you have loved me like you should have? What would it have been, to tell you about my day, to listen to your bedtime stories or have you there to catch me when I fell?
Did I not deserve you? Did I not deserve to have you there?? Selfish as you are it took far to long for me to see it was not my fault..
And you.. You come back far to late, begging my forgiveness, too blind to see you lost me long ago.
I will not crumble for your affection, nor will I beg your time,
If I was so important you would not have left me so alone.
How dare you even try?
When I know all about the new family you started without me,
Did you finally get the life you always wanted? After casting me away for so long, don't dare patronize the choices I have made,
You lost that right when you walked out the door.
