The One For Me || jerrie g!p

Chapter 14

July 8th, 2022

Jade POV

With the sun shining bright and the never-ending busy activity in New York, It was not a secret about what went down between Perrie and me. We're not on good terms, hell we aren't even on speaking terms. Something happened about a week ago at Lauren's birthday party. You see, Camila flew all of us off to Massachusetts to throw a surprise party for Lauren. I have a penthouse there near Harvard so we use it for the party and everyone was having a blast until the morning after which really upset me.

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Flashback
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Last night was epic. Camila sure knows how to throw a party. We all have had a great time, including me but there's only one thing that was bothering me. Perrie was avoiding me at all costs. She just walked the other way every time I was near and looked away when we caught each other's eyes.

Speak of the devil, we were all cleaning up the mess from last night when I saw her picking up trash in the kitchen finally alone. I've been meaning to talk to her about what happened, about what I said. I knew I dropped a bomb on her that night and I know It had only been 4 days since that night but this was the longest time we hadn't interacted with each other.

For the first time since I can remember I'm really scared. I'm scared that I won't just lose the girl that I love but also my best friend. The only person who can read me, who can see the real me. I knew she didn't feel the same way but if I had to bury these feelings just so that I could still have her as my best friend then fine. I just didn't want to lose her. I just want her to be still in my life, even just as a friend.

I went to her and touched her on the shoulder from behind her "Perrie," she turned around and looked panicking. "Jade, umm...wha-what's up?"

"Are we okay? Look I'm sorry it happened but please don't avoid me," I said and she looked very uncomfortable but we have to talk about this one way or another.

"What? Umm I don't know what you're talking about, I'm not avoiding you and why wouldn't we be okay?" she lied to me and I just sighed. She Always does this thing where she tilts her head a bit when she lies.

"Perrie-" she cut me off. "Hey, you know what? We still have so much to clean so," she was about to walk away and I was not going to let this to be between us. I'm not having unsolved problem with her.

I catch her arm gently "Perrie wait" then continued "Look I'm really sorry for dropping a bomb on you that night, it's just-" she cut me off again. "I don't wanna talk about it okay?" she said which I replied "But, Perrie. It'll be quick but let's just-" she cut me off for the third time now "I said I don't want to talk about it," raising her voice. She freed herself and started to walk again but I followed her and everyone that was cleaning things stopped since we "but why not? I get it that you don't feel the same way but can you at least talk to me? you don't talk to me, you don't go near me, you avoid me, and you don't even look at me the same way anymore Pez! You're the one who always says to talk things out so let's talk, just tell me why you don't want to talk to me," I started to raise my voice. I'm frustrated, are my feelings not important anymore?

She turned around "I just can't, Jade!" she shouted at me before continuing "What do you expect me to do huh? You can't just drop a bomb on me like that and expect me not to have this kind of reaction. You say things like that is just making me rethink everything. Like did everything you said or did really because I deserved it like you always said or it was just your way to court me. Because people tend to lie or exaggerate things just to court someone they like. So no, I don't want to talk and just give me some space," and with that, she walked away and we didn't speak again to one another until now.

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Present
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I can't stop thinking about Perrie and the fact that I understand social media now also not helping because she and Camila are everywhere. I mean I understand that they are famous and all but I can't stop thinking about the fake smile she put on, on social media.

Perrie's smile was usually joyful and lately she might look like she was happy but I could tell she had a lot on her mind but whatever right? It's not like she wants me. Even though her reaction was unacceptable to me, I still love her and it hurts me to see her like that.

Yes, I do love her but that doesn't mean she could treat me like that. She made it seem like I was this obsessed, desperate, person when all I wanted was just to talk to her.

All I wanted to do was to ask her if I lost her for good or not but instead of talking it out like she always said she just called me out, and pushed me away so that's what I've been doing, granting her wishes. I didn't talk to her, didn't see her, and she could have as much space as she wanted for all I cared.

I was busy doing work stuff from the paperwork to the work on my laptop when someone knocked on my door, probably Anne I don't know since I kept my eyes on my work stuff. "Yes, Anne?" I asked without taking my eyes off my work. "Uh Jade, it's me," wait hold on, I know that voice anywhere.

I looked up so fast that I was lucky not to break my neck. "Perrie? What the hell are you doing here? And for the record, I have a meeting any minute now so I don't have time to argue with you nor in the mood to be treated like a desperate fool," Don't judge me but I'm upset with her. I got up and walked into a little table on the corner near my desk to pour myself a bourbon.

"That's fair. I deserve that but no I'm not here to pick a fight. I'm actually here to talk," she said letting herself in but still standing up.

I scoffed "Talk? Well that's rich," sipping my bourbon. "Look I'm not here to fight okay? I've been feeling bad for how I reacted and can we just talk please?"

"You want to talk? okay, fine let's talk but make it quick, I'm busy" I said walking towards her.

"Well, I just want to say that I'm sorry for the way I reacted but think about it, if you're in my shoes," she said to me. "Well if I were you I would never react that way and you know it,"

"Jade can you stop being bitchy and just talk civilly because think about it Jade, I don't know you're going to say that and you know what I've been through. You caught me off guard and it scares me because I'm afraid things are going to change. I mean why Jade? We were just fine being friends why," she said to me. Did she really just ask me that?

"Did you really just ask me that? Do you think I want to feel this way? Do you think I chose to feel this way?! No Perrie. If I can choose I wouldn't believe me. I don't know how it happened but it did whether you and I like it or not! And you think you're the only one that scared? No, because I am too. I'm not just scared that things are going to change but I'm scared that by coming out to you, I pushed you away and that makes me lose you for good. I'm scared to lose you because you're the only one who can see the real me and I know you Perrie through and through. So don't come here to tell me that you're scared because you're not the only one," I said furiously. I'm sad, I'm hurt, I'm scared.

"But you're not going to lose me, Jade," she said walking even closer to me. "Yeah well, how should I know that?! I'm not a psychic Perrie and your reaction was also not helping," I almost shout at this point. "Look, I appreciate you coming here to apologize and I accept it but that doesn't change the fact that I'm mad at you. Now if you'll excuse me, I have a meeting to attend," and with that, I walked out of my office angry leaving her there.

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Chapter 14

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