The One For Me || jerrie g!p

Chapter 36

Jade POV

I didn't realize that I had drank myself to sleep until I woke up around 7PM. Instead of getting up, I just laid there on the floor staring at the ceiling feeling absolutely terrible. I felt numb.

I didn't realize how much Perrie meant to me until I lost her. Everything I ever did was for her, my life has been all about her and now I felt like I have no purpose in life because there's no point anymore. I worked hard, I wrote songs, everything I did was to make her happy, but I lost her, I failed to make her happy.

Instead of making her happy like I promised, I hurt her the most. I did what I swore to myself that I would never do. I hurt her, I pushed her away and now she's gone.

I sat up but when I scan the room, it's too painful. Maybe I was loosing my mind but I could almost feel her presence with me. Losing her was like losing a big part of myself. So I got up to my car and went to the only place I would go everytime I needed to get away. Leigh-Anne's place.

I got there with my almost drunken state and knock on the door. I knew Leigh would asked about Perrie but that was still better than being home where a lot has happened between Perrie and I.

A lot has happened in my house, like the first time she came by the house and found out that I couldn't cook to safe my life she cooked for me,that was the first time she cooked for me in my kitchen, and then there was the first time I said I'm in love with her, or when she told me that she wanted to move in with me, the first time we made love, the first time she knew all of me, hell I even met her dad for the very first time at my house.

Soon enough Leigh opened the door. "Jade, hey come in,"

When I got inside she closed the door. "Did it not go well?" That does it. I just shook my head while I broke down in tears.

"Ohh Jade, I'm so sorry," she said as she hugged me. She led me to the couch and tried her best to comfort me even though it was no use. I don't want anything else, I just want her back.

"Have you eaten anything yet?" She asked and again I just shook my head.

"Okay, you get comfortable, I'm gonna make you some dinner, I'll be right back," she said before kissing my forehead and left .

I reached into my pocket and take out the the thing that I have been meaning to give to Perrie. The one thing that I have been planning to do. The ring box.

I opened it and there it was, a beautiful ring sitting in it's box, the ring that I never get to use. The ring that I was going to use when I asked Perrie to marry me. Looking at it, I couldn't help but go down the memory lane.

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Flashback
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March 23rd, 2025

It almost been a month since Perrie and I decided to trust each other's judgment on Dani and Alex. We can finally talk again without having an argument but the thing is, even though she didn't complained about me being with Dani anymore, I could see it in her eyes that it was hard for her. It was killing her on the inside the same way that it was killing me when she was with Alex.

Perrie tried to hide her feeling, pretending to be okay with me and Dani but I could see the concern in her face. She was worried Dani would hurt me again, or worse, ruin us. She thought I didn't notice but I did. All that got me to think about what my dad said. He said I had to choose, so maybe he's right, so I thought about it.

After all the thinking I did, I decided that it was still not enough to make me certain with my decision so I went to the only place I can rely on everytime I need some advice. Everytime I need a smack on the back of my head. With a high hope I was driving to my parents house to see my dad because I'm in a desperate need of an advice.