The One For Me || jerrie g!p

Chapter 39

A/n: I forgot to mention, Jade is as thin as Peeta Melark in the hunger games. Think about it like she was that thin because she barely eat and she looks terrible because of the side effects of the drugs.
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May 23rd, 2025

Jade POV

I was woken up like any other day, by a massive headache and nauseousness. Also like every other day, I was too weak to get up and just puked my guts out in a bucket that Leigh-Anne had put beside the bed. That was my morning routine ever since she left me.

The whole reason why I started using drugs was not only because she left. Yes that was the main reason but there were other things. Like wherever I go, everything reminds me of her, I heard her voice every time something reminded me of her, my hoodies smells like her, but there was this thing, I was seeing things. Seeing memories of her like flashes but it was so real.

That was all the painfully beautiful things. The worst part was that everytime I closed my eyes I saw her eyes that was glistening with tears. I saw her leaving while I was just crying to her, on my knees begging for her to stay with the ring box in my pocket. I saw her face that looked so hurt by my action while asking me how can I do that to her. I saw all those things everytime I was alone no matter where I was.

In the middle of vomiting Leigh-Anne came in along with Zayn, Lauren and Camila. I heard Leigh sighed like usual "alright Jade, you know the drill, let's get you cleaned up,"

"No, I got it, Leigh. Let me take her to the bathroom," I heard Lauren said as I was wiping my mouth after vomiting.

"Zayn, give me a hand?" She said while I was laying face down on the bed.

"Yeah, I got you," he said before both of them carried me to the bathroom.

Lauren POV

After half an hour or so, Jade finally sobered up so Zayn and I left her to take a shower herself. The boys and I were planning to take Jade out hoping it would take her mind off of Perrie. We wait for her to get dressed by herself. But as we were waiting in the living room we heard her scream.

"I said no!"

We all rushed to her room and saw that she was on her phone. We didn't say anything, we just watched her. "I don't care they said! I can't even do anything without thinking about her, let alone write a song. My songs has always been about her, and you want me to write about her?" She paused hearing whoever it was on the phone.

"And Liam knows about this?" She waited again.

She ran her hand through her hair "fine, but I can't promise you anything. See you there," she sighed as hung up the phone before.

"fuck" she muttered before she threw herself onto the bed covering her face.

"Hey, what's the matter?" Zayn said sitting beside her as I copied his action by sitting on the other side which made Jade sat up.

"The label wanted me to make an album or else they'll drop me. I have tried to postpone it but they don't want to wait anymore. I had to go to the studio," she explained.

"Hey it's okay, you like singing right? You like making music?," I said trying to hype her up. To excite her with anything other than Perrie.

"Not anymore. She was the one who made my dream of becoming a singer come true. All of the songs that I've written was about her. My entire life evolved around her, Laur," she said staring at the floor.