I Don't Know Anymore (Completed)

Calum

Tay's P.O.V:

Michael and I looked at each other. I took a deep breath and we walked into Calum's room.

He was hooked up to machines. He was motionless and his skin looked paler than his usual tan.

My heart dropped and Michael tightened his grip. We walked over to the side of his bed.

Michael pulled up a chair and we both sat down.

" Calum." I said grabbing his hand.

His hand was cold.

" Please. Wake up." I said trying to hold back the tears.

" Buddy. Michael here." Michael said.

I looked at Michael and saw he was also trying to hold his tears back.

" We need you to wake up." Michael said.

I went to go speak but no words came out. Michael looked at me with a sad expression. I burst into tears and started crying on Michael's shoulder. I stopped crying and looked back at Calum.

" If you don't wake up it won't be the same performing without a bassist. I don't think we could ever perform again." Michael said looking down.

I gripped Calum and Michael's hand tighter and looked down.

" Please. Calum. Wake up." I begged.

I looked up at Michael and Michael looked at me. I gave a small smile and looked back down at Calum.

I let go of Calum's hand and put it on his leg.

" I don't want to leave until I know your ok." I said looking at his lips.

I stood up and leaned over. I kissed his lips even though he couldn't kiss me back. I sat back down and sighed.

" Please. Calum. I need you. Michael needs you. Your fans are worried sick about you." I said.

" We canceled our whole tour because we didn't know how long you, Ashton, and Luke would be admitted for. Luke and Ashton have broken bones if you didn't already know." Michael said.

" We should leave them alone." I heard Marie whisper.

Michael went to stand up but I pulled him back down into the chair. " Stay."

" I can't see him much longer. I don't you to see me cry." He said.

" Its ok. I don't care." I said.

After I said that Michael burst out crying. He fell to the ground and I sat beside him. I pulled Michael into a hug and he started crying even more.

" I just want my best friend back!" Michael cried out.

" I know. I want him back too." I said.

I looked up at Calum and sighed.

" You can leave if you want." I said.

Michael stood up and walked out. I got back into the chair I was sitting in.

" Calum. I miss you. I need you. But you probably don't want to see me ever again. I wouldn't blame you."

" Im a mistake." I said.

I wiped the tears from my eyes and laughed a little. " I don't even know why I have friends. I don't deserve them. They'd probably better off without me."

I closed my eyes and looked down.

" I guess what im trying to say is that I wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to see me ever again." I said standing up.

I kissed him again and started walking out. " I want you to know I love you still."